After that day when Neymar found out that Bruna wanted to kill me there was no peace in our household.
Besides the fact that 4 months later the divorce is nowhere near an end,things between me and Neymar got pretty tensed lately and we would argue about each little thing and it becomes annoying.
He would get so angry that sometimes i would get scared of his reaction.
Right now we were into such a fresh argument.
I told him last night that i want to visit my family which lived in New York and i want to take Layla with me.
We could've discuss this out but he made such a big thing out of it and he ended leaving the house.
I couldn't fell asleep until 4 and by then he wasn't home.
I couldn't even remember the last time he slept next to me,or when he kissed me or when he hugged me.
He would come home after training at 3 in the afternoon and he would take Layla God knows where.
I never wanted to ask where they were going but he just seemed annoyed whenever he saw me and i also felt so alone being left home.
The thought of leaving again went thru my mind but i quickly shook it off after i remembered what happened last time.
I didn't want to live like this anymore and this time it wasn't even about sacrifices. I needed to tell Neymar all i have on my soul today. I need a break from this.
Late in the night he finally got home.
He stumbled into the house trying to grab onto sonething for balance...he was drunk.
I went towards him to help him up but noticed something that i wish i didn't.
There were red lipstick stains on his white shirt and his neck was scratched.
I backed off feeling tears building into my eyes and immediately ran to the bedroom locking the door.i broke down crying and could hear him knocking on the door and saying some things that i didn't really care about anymore.
After like an hour of crying his knocks stopped too and i got up grabbing my suitcases and started packing my clothes.
In the morning i will talk to him and let him knkw about everything i don'twant to leave like last time plus i want to take my daughter too.
The sunshine made it's way into the room illuminating it.
I always woke up in a good mood whenever the sun was shining so bright but apparently not today.
I made my way downstairs to find Layla sitting on the couch watching cartoons and eating a bowl of cereals.
I went to the kitchen and found Neymar there. He quickly turned around to face me as soon as he felt my presence. His eyes were red and swollen and he was about to say something before i cut him off.
"No,listen to me.I came to the conclusion that it would be better if we went on separate ways because right now we are just hurting each other. " i said and tried to avoid any eye contact.
"Maryse,listen it wasn't what it looked like.You can't just leave me like that. I can't lose even the last persons that i have." His voice cracked a few times as he said that.
I remained quite,that crazy bitch just took his son away and i was about to take his daughter away from him too.
"Don't you love me anymore?"he questioned and i froze.i didn't have an answer for that so i tried to shake it off but he wouldn't let me. He came closer to me and i still refused to make any eyecontact so he lift my chin up.
"Look into my eyes and tell me that you don't love me anymore." He said and i broke down in tears. I couldn't handle the pressure.
"I can't do that. I can't and never will. Of course i love you and it broke my heart to know that you cheated on me but i am able to forgive that because i can not live without you, i can't function like a proper human without you.You are part of me and i don't exist without that part." I snapped and kept crying.
He immediately wrapped his arms around me and oulled me as close as possible.
"Then don't leave me. Fuck Bruna,fuck the divorce,fuck everything. It's summer i don't have any games let's take Layla and go somewhere where we will be just the three of us. Don't give up on us please.Let's work this out together."he started crying and i felt my knees going weak.
I knew he ment all those words,everything depended on my answer now.
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Ayeee sorry for the boring chapter but honestly i don't even know where i'm trying to get. This book is a surprise for me too 😂
