Feelings

Wondering.

Today is Monday, July 11, 2016. Real quick this song uptop understands me 

~~It starts here~~

Another day of nothing. I don't know what to do again. So I'm just going to write. I always wonder why people like me. Are they just there to make fun of me? Talk about me be hind my back?

I guess now. Why am I'm here? I wasn't even supposed to be born. I was a miss take. Well a drunken mistake. They don't even trust me.

I'm the bad guy. I'm not the good guy.

Yesterday I thought about cutting. But I didn't. I know hope would kill me I Shaw a Razer blade. And thought. Should I, would I feel better?

The problem is. I want to but I don't want to. I want to not be here no more. I want to leave. The only person that under stand me is hope.

She there for me I love her to bits and pieces. But she can't change me. I can't change my thoughts. I can't change me.

Most of the time I wonder,

Should I be alive?

Would anyone care if I died ?

Should I cut?

Should I just leave?

I feel alone.

I always feel alone.

That is what I think each and every day. I doubt my self. I can't do good at anything.

I
Am
Alone.

Talk tomorrow.

I say that to myself.

But no one cares.

My mom doesn't

My dad doesn't.

No one does.

Goodbye?

I want to say. But I dont. I want to say good bye. I want to say it so badly. But I dont.

Like the quote up top.

No one notice you tears, No one notice you sadness, No one notices your pain, but they only notice your mistakes

Well, I will see you guys tomorrow.