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Chapter 1

Scarlet, California. It’s so boring here. Nothing ever happens here. I’ve been living here in the same house since I was 5 years old. Soon after I moved in with my mom and step-dad, my grandma passed away. I’ve been going to school with mostly the same people since kindergarten. We’ve had the occasional new kid or someone moved away and in high school, kids come from different schools around the county and foreign exchange students come in, but it’s mostly the same kids. I’ve been dealing with the same snobs, the same bullies, the same wanna-be’s, and the same guys that I can’t get out of my head for most of my life. I’ve had mostly the same group of friends since grade school. I’ve lost some friends and gained some friends, but in a way, it’s always been the same. It’s always the same with everything.

            Damzel Hunt is my name, but most people call me Dam. I’m a normal teenager girl. I have normal teenage girl problems. I’ve never been able to get along with my mom and I don’t really see her that much anymore. I only knew my biological father for 4 years before he ran off with a woman from Wisconsin after cheating on his wife. They had only been married for two years and now, his ex-wife is pretty close to my mom which is weird because they used to hate each other, but that’s what my mom does. Once she’s run out of people who will listen to her complain about how bad her life is or listen to her talk crap about someone else behind their back, she’ll try and be friends with people she’s pissed off or that have pissed her off. I’ll never get it.

            I’m not the most popular girl at school. I’m friends with almost everyone at school, but I only have three friends that I would trust with my life and they know everything about me. They were the first to know when I thought someone was cute or when my boyfriend and I had split. They were the first to know everything. Well, almost everything. It took me awhile to tell them that I wasn’t over Aiden, the guy that had completely destroyed me in the past couple of years. It took me awhile to tell them that I was dating him and it took me awhile to tell them he cheated on me and that we were done for good. I still haven’t told them that I would do almost anything to be with Aiden again. I don’t think I’m going to. I’m afraid of how they might react and what they might say.

            I guess you could say I’ve dealt with a lot of pain in my life. Not as much as some, but I’ve still felt a lot of pain. I’ve been bullied by mostly the same people since grade school. It started to stop in 6th grade after I slammed a kids head in his locker for saying I was fat. That was one of the main things I would get bullied for. My weight. No one bullies me for that anymore because I grew a few inches and started exercising, so I dropped all the weight. I also would got bullied because I wasn’t the prettiest and I’m still not that pretty. The thing that most people try to use against me, now, is the fact that I have a dream and I’m trying to chase that dream with one of my best friends, Elane. There aren’t that many people that believe in us, but we’re going to prove them wrong. Someday, the people who mock us or make fun of us because of our dreams will be buying our albums and other merchandise for their kids (maybe even for themselves).

            Music is my everything. It’s there for me when my dad isn’t which is most of the time. My dad works a lot, so it’s not really his fault, but when he isn’t working, he’s still only there for me a little and never when I need him the most. Music helps me when I need to cry or scream or laugh or feel like I’m wanted or feel like there’s someone out there for me. There won’t be a time when music isn’t there for me.

            The first day of my Junior year at Raven High is in 3 weeks, but the only thing that will be different is some of the teachers. I’ll still get the same grades. I’ll still deal with the same people. I’ll still want the same person to want me, again. I’ll still have the same friends. I’ll still feel the same pain I do every time I see Aiden with Kailey. Nothing will change. Nothing... Ever... Changes...