Finding Love After Marriage (A Muslimah Love story)

Chapter 43

Amaya POV

When i read jessy's suicide note to say i was shock would be an understatement,she always was the boldest and strongest girl i ever knew,i never told her but i admire her strong personality and this suicide note was something i didnt expect

Here im leaving this note behind to let you know im solely responsible for my dead i thought i could handle this i thought i was strong enough but the truth is im not,im just like every other girl i too have a heart i too feel pain,when you cant fight your pain anymore you end it and thats what im going to do...

i didnt know what to do how to handle this,the only person i could think of at that moment was Zara bhabi,some where i knew she would handle it maturely

When i told her about jessy she was shocked it took her few minutes to understand the whole situation,when i asked her to talk to my friend she said its not a good idea,she even told me not to mention our conversation to jessy,for some reason she suggested to introduced her to jessy in a formal way later,i didnt question her even though i was expecting her to talk to my friend advice her or something but knowing Zara bhabi i knew she wouldnt say anything without a reason,she asked me to follow her instructions

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I saw jessy coming in giving me fake smile asking,how my holidays she sat on her study table collecting notes,being her room mate and  friend i knew she was reserve type,she dont open up easily,she will tease you she will fight with you,she can be a great company but sharing her problem was last in her list but i had make an attempt to make her talk to me before she take any crucial steps,i remember the words Zara bhabi said when i told her i found her suicide note in dustbin

Amaya sucidal person may never ask for help but they are the who need them the most,knowing you found the note in dustbin and your friend is still alive clearly means she want to live more than she wants to die

A sucidal person dont want to end their life they want to end their problems,not knowing how to,they end up commiting suicide

Every human being needs an assurance their is someone whom they can rely on in any circumtances,loneliness is life's enemy,their comes a time in life where our mind and heart search for someone whom we can rely on

Keeping her words in mind i took a deep breath,sat next to her,mentally prepared to make the converstation keeping Zara bhabi's every instruction in mind

"So jessy how was your holidays?"

"It was nice"Again a fake smile

"Ummm...i kind of see you disturbed,is there anything i can do for you?"her face saddened a bit

"No,everything's alright"she just brushed it off continuing her work,this left me with no other choice i have to make her talk to me,suicide note was sign she is going to commit suicide or who knows she might have tried

"I believe this belongs to you"i slowly placed her suicide note on the table,she didnt make any eye contact with me just fixed her eyes on the note

"I want you to know im there for you,you can share anything you want and trust me i will not tell anyone anything,never think you are alone jessy im there for you"Zara bhabi had clearly instructed me not to lecture her or advice her or anything,she told me to listen to whatever jessy had to say,we sat their like five to ten minutes without uttering a single word

"So when were you planning to commit suicide?"i asked breaking the silence

"Tonight"her eye still not meeting mine

"ohhh...so which way you chose?"

"Slitting my wrist"

"ouch"a small smile escaped at the corner of her lips