Rejects (l.h.)

17- Goodbye Girl

2011- February 2nd
Luke's POV...

I think I have too much music on my phone, it doesn't like to make phone calls or take text messages anymore. Whoops. I don't necessarily think that is a bad thing. Music is my ultimate life! Wow, I need to just take a moment and think about what I said. Yikes. BANG! BANG! BANG! "Get up bed head!" Jack yells to me through the door. I roll onto the floor and stare at the ceiling fan. I am positive Kristina's family would take me in if my family "accidentally" left me behind. I don't think I can go back to Australia. I want to keep doing music, but I just can't without Kristina. I mean, I could, but I just don't want to. That is how we first bonded, music. We just have this connection. "Hey, lover boy! Your girlfriend is here to take you and me to the airport!" Jack yells again, "Let's go!" I flop on the floor but eventually get up. I take a glace to my empty room. All that is left is the bed that is staying here.

"Jack, she is not my girlfriend," I say to him on my way down the stairs.
"Oh, sorry. I forgot you had to break up with her because we are moving again," he says.
I want to punch him in the nose so badly, "Ha, you are so funny."

"Let's go boys!" Kris yells. "I don't really understand why you couldn't go with your parents and Ben."
"They also have Molly with them." I say hopping in the front seat next to her. Jack gets in the back behind me.
"So, you have two vehicles," she says.
"Mom sold her car yesterday and there is not room in the back of my dads car because we kinda over packed." I explain.
"We? Do you have a mouse in your pocket Luke?" Jack asks. I sigh.

We get out of Kris's car. We all find mom and dad. Kristina helps us grab our bags and walks us to the entrance. "I can take those," Ben says to her, "It's six in the morning, go home."
"Um, I don't think so." she replies. I snicker because if mom or dad would have said that she would have protested. Not just say, 'no'.
"Really you don't have to stay. I'm sure you're tired," my dad says.
"I would have already been awake!" she exclaims.
"True," I add.

We get past security and put our bags down. Kristina comes and sits down next to me. I grab her wrist and look at the clock. It's eight o'clock. My flight leaves around ten o'clock. Yeah, we thought traffic would be a lot worse. "Mom, me and Kris are going to get some food." mom nods and I drag Kristina behind me.
"Where are we going?" she asks. I shush her, something she would do to me.

I pull her around a corner. Secretly I had been hiding something behind my back. I show her that I was hiding my song book behind my back and her eyes light up. "No," she says under her breath. I push it to her and force her to take it. "I can't," she says as tears swell in her eyes, "No." she said quietly. I stand there in silence. I don't say anything. "I forgot!" she says louder, "Don't leave yet!" she hands me my book back and runs to the exit.

She comes running back in with a bag and tissue paper peeking out. She shoves it into my chest and I push my book back to her. Kristina finally gives up on giving it back to me. I take out the paper and find a box inside. "I know your favorite color is pink!" she says when I read that she got me pink speakers. "They also connect to your phone, or really anything. Even a computer!" I think she is way to excited about that. Kris knows, I am not a big fan of pink. I smile at her though.
"Have you opened the letter yet?" I ask her.
"No," she answers. I nod.

Is it bad that I want to press my lips to hers right now right here. I just keep staring into her eyes. I just... Ugh. I don't even think she feels the same way about me. If she does, what could I do to find out! I have so little time. I just want to study her. Just... I don't think I can leave now. "Look in the bottom of the bag," she says breaking the silence. I look and see a CD case with "LUCAS" written on it. It is all decorated with her art work. She has a great shot to be and animator, just not enough confidence.
"What is this?" I ask.
"Let's just say, I know how to do some remixes." she smiles. I didn't know she did those.

My flight is called, and I have my last chance to kiss her. I don't, I can't. I just don't know or understand why I can't. She jumps in my arms and squeezes tight. I stand there holding her. Kris and I did so good at not crying, but I can feel her sobbing on my shoulder. Her head rests in the crook of my neck. I can feel the tear drip down my face. "Come on, buddy." Ben puts his hand on my shoulder and Kristina releases me from her grip. She stands there until she thinks I can't see her any more. Before I turn the corner, I see her face in her hands and she turns around. She walks to the exit with her face still in her hands. It breaks me to see her like this. Why is life so mean? Why did I have to live in a stupid family that makes me a best friend and then takes her away from me? Why?