Chapter 31: Sick June?
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Im Rae Ya's POV
I felt bad. And kind of mad. And happy. And confused. All at the same time.
1. I felt bad because I forgot to look for June the moment Hanbin appeared. I forgot about everything as soon as he touched me. I felt bad for lying that I took a call even if I didn't.
2. I felt kind of mad because I walked for more than an hour just to look for no one. He didn't even text or call me! I got nothing! He didn't even tell me he was home until Hanbin walked me to the bus stop. I felt betrayed. I felt like June didn't even bother to look for me. I thought he was worried even just a little bit. He showed none. And I'm disappointed.
3. Today involved a lot of Hanbin. Even though I got real dramatic after the chicken fight, to walking me home and cutting him off when he was about to say something that seemed really important, sneakily appearing in front of me just to tell me to 'stay safe', and finally finding me at an unusually dark neighborhood, he didn't bring up anything that would definitely make the atmosphere heavy and awkward.
The right word of how I'm feeling right now is relieved. Today was eventful. I feel like l would've walked myself to the bus stop alone after trying to find June. I could've died or something if the person who touched me wasn't Hanbin in the dark neighborhood.
Having normal conversations with him made me feel somewhat.. peaceful. After all those months, even after today and filming all 10 episodes for M&M ('cos the one they're filming now is for the DVD) without speaking properly and ignoring each other, I feel like we're starting to be okay again but...
4. I feel so confused - I am indeed relieved that Hanbin and I are starting to be okay again, but something inside me just doesn't... feel right. I don't know. I feel like there's something missing. I just don't know what it was.
~ 2 weeks later ~
I woke up happily. I've been waking up everyday excited to go to training ever since that night happened. Nothing has changed between me and Hanbin since then. We've been greeting each other now, like high fives on the hallway when we see each other, casually joking around when I meet him at the water fountain etc.
I texted everyone I'm close to on my contacts list (aka just Junhoe, Yunhyeong and Yunhee, since I still don't have everyone's numbers because I'm so bad with texting) good morning.
I've been hanging out with Yunhee quite often now because she's always at the training hall to teach iKON. She finally gave in by telling me that she slightly has a crush on Chanwoo. MY OTP.
I'm also annoying Junhoe more than ever - he wanted to strangle me once. But he's not complaining. He's actually pretty clingy now. He acts like he's so annoyed with me but texts me when I'm nowhere to be found. He can't resist my charms. *evil laughs* Strangely though, we never talked about our mini ramyeon 'date'.
Today, I slept at the trainee's dorm. I sometimes (but not all the time) sleep at home when I miss my aunt, uncle (although he's barely home) and my room. Our members aren't questioning me since they know that I live near.
I went out of our room to see that everyone has already gone.
Okay, I overslept. Damn.
