Dear You,

Crashing

Dear You,

I thought I was okay. I thought that everything was going okay. But it wasn't. I didn't understand how I got back to this position. This crappy, heartbroken girl. It sucks. You were my first ever emotional attachment that mattered to me. I keep telling myself that I'll find someone better, but that someone wouldn't be you. I never knew that it was so easy to just swipe my progress clean. You might ask how I got into this position. Well you see, I was walking to math and then I saw you kissing her. I honestly felt happy for you before, but when I saw you two, all I felt was pain and I didn't know why. I just couldn't bear the fact that less than a year ago, those lips were mine, and only mine. It was like reality slapped me in the face. I had prepared so much. I was actually moving on. Who knew that a mere kiss would take that all away from me. It hurts to know that I will never be on your mind. I had to face the fact that even if you did break up with her, even if you came back to me, nothing would ever be the same. We're not meant for each other. I know that now. I felt too much, and you didn't. Last week, I was so confident in myself. I felt myself improving, moving on. Who knew you'd find me on the bathroom floor a couple days later at 2 am asking what I did wrong. I thought it hurt the day you gave up on me, but nothing will ever compare to the hurt I felt when you started loving her. Your name still gives me heartache. I want to let you go, but how do you let go of a person that felt like home?

Sincerely,

Me

Major thanks to Kirsten to inspiring this part. Meach for the stars boo. Oh and guys I hit three hundred plus words with this one! New record! :)