Dear You,

What If's

Dear You,

I can't stop thinking about you. You're always there in the corner of my mind. Every single time I wake up, you're the first thought that comes to mind. I saw you at school today. You didn't notice I was there. You looked so normal, like nothing happened. I didn't know it was that easy for you to forget me. To forget what's ever come between us. So many what if's pop into my head at lightning speed. What if you're already seeing someone? What if you just played me? What if you never loved me?  I don't know anymore and it feels like I was in love with someone who really wasn't there. I caught you looking at me the other day during one of our classes. Why were you looking at me? Were you pitying me? Were you savoring the pain that you gave me? It kills me. It kills me not talking to you. It kills me that you won't go up to me and take back everything you said. It kills me that you stopped loving me. Or if you've ever even loved me to begin with. I used to build dreams about you. I dreamed about my future. My future with you. I wonder if you've even thought of me once since our break up. I still have feelings for you. No matter how hard I try, a part of me just won't let go. I'm sorry.

Sincerely,
                                                    Me