Edge Of Desire

Drowning

KANG SEULGI

"Mino don't go..." I beg. I don't know what's gotten into me but I want him to stay. "Stay with me."

He turns around and stares at me deeply. His stare tells me as if he has no idea about my action. I have no courage to look back at him, so I choose to look down, hiding my face with my hair surrounds me.

"Hey, hey, Kang Seulgi. Hey, look at me." He says as he caresses my arms gently up and down. "Tell me what happened with you?"

"Nothing, Mino. I just—want you..." I stutter, still avoiding his gaze and I feel the pain inside my chest has escalated intensely as I state further. "I w-want you—to be here, w-with me."

Mino stares at me, blinking slightly, he looks surprised. Of course he will be surprised, since I never did something that bold like a moment ago but I don't care anymore, because I want him. I really want him and I don't want him to be with Irene. Just for this time, I want to be selfish.

"Alright, I will stay here with you." He states as he pulls me into his warm embrace. I buries my head on his chest, deeper, inhaling all his scent; musk and amber, a warm yet sweet, intoxicating—Mino's scent. Unwelcomed tears prick my eyes as I cling to him.

Oh no, do not cry. Do not cry, Kang Seulgi. I keep telling it to myself over and over again, but it won't do. I cry, even more harder as he gently pats my back and hugs me even tighter.

I sob and he chooses to stay quiet. He barely speaks anything but his warm hug is the only thing that he can offer to calm me and magically, my tear has stopped and none of us have an urge to break this closeness. None of us. Even though I'm not really sure about him.

Nevertheless, he stays still. He didn't move a muscle, and it surprises me as how he just casually wraps my body as if I'm the most fragile, breakable creature in this world and I've realized, I never have somebody to stay before or willing to stay before and it almost feels like—he wants me, as if it feels like he loves me.

Between the silence, my mind starts to wonder about every possibility, about every chance.

Should I confess?

Nevertheless, I've realized, I've never had a best friend before. But in a way, I ended up being his best friend along with this twisted path, I fall in love. I've never been in love with someone as much as I love him. He's my first ever and this love, my love for him is the only thing I've felt certain about in my life. It's real.

Do I need to confess? I ask to myself once again but I am not that greedy. I'm actually very scared to know what will happen next. I am just a pathetic, pitiful, miserable broken hearted girl and Mino is not someone that I can fall in love with, because he's my best friend.

Once, he tells me that the stars shines the brightest on the darkness of the night but I am not a star, I am not something beautiful, I am not something that catches his eyes—I am just me. For him, I am nothing but something invisible.

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SONG MINO

"Stay with me." She begs me.

Seriously, I've never felt this taken aback until this moment. Seeing Seulgi cries right in front of my eyes, I know she cries easily but her tears look different as I take a look into her eyes. There is something that made me feel; breaking and shattered and I don't know what's happening to me, but this time I really forget about anything else that matters to me—I just want to hug her, comfort her, make her feel better. Then, I hug her, tighter and tighter as she silently cries on my shoulder. If she really needs me right now, I will stay as long as she wants me to. I don't care about anything anymore.