Edge Of Desire

[M] A Good Bye?

WARNING: If you're wondering why I put M-rated tag on this chapter that's because this chapter contains a mature content. Not a heavy smut actually, because I kind of hesitating of any of you who still underage. Please skip it, if you're still underage okay? LOL :)))

I lie down on bed with an ipod on full blast. The door is locked, and the curtain is drawn. An empty box of my favorite chocolate; godiva lies on the floor. I look at my own reflection in the mirror, my eyes are swollen, smudges with make up. My fingertips are stained from wiping away my mascara and eye liner stained tears. It's been a week since Mino said goodbye but the pain is still fresh. The memories of his rigid, frighten, terrified expression still linger perfectly in my mind and his-I-don't-love-you are the thing that giving me so much pain for my whole body.

He don't love me, the truth has been told.

It's still 09.00 PM, however and all of sudden, I feel really tired like the world has drained me for everything that I have.

Knock, knock, knock.

I shift my gaze to the door as I hear the knocking sounds from the outside.

"Seulgi, open the door. It's me."

I sigh and get up from my bed. By judging from the voices, I know it's Wendy. I push open the door and after that Wendy rushes herself to hug me.

"You okay?"I give her a tight hug in return.

"I'm... Well, I suppose I'm not."

She fixates her sight to me, her eyes are looking with so much concern. I know she's been worried to me for a whole week. Putting her arms around my back, she leads me back to my room. We take a seat on the floor and since then, Wendy's eyes are never leaving mine.

"I'm sorry to bombard you like this, truthfully I was waiting for you to tell me about anything but since you're being stubborn enough and probably not gonna telling me about anything except I ask it first, and if it's not because I care for you maybe I wouldn't be here to help you. I'm sorry, but I can't help it, you're my best girl, Seul." Her words somehow make my heart warm. This is the thing that I like from Wendy, she's very bold and quite expressive. If only I could be as expressive as she is, maybe, well just maybe, I wouldn't suffer this much. A curve of smile appears on her lips. "So, tell me. Did you sort out everything well with him?"I take a deep breath before answering her question.

"I told him that I love him."She furrows her eyebrows. "Then?"

"And he told me that he can't act as we used to be, for short, we can't be friend as normally as we used to. He wanted to walk out from my life and I—" The tears stop me from telling Wendy more.

Wendy sighs as she pats my back continuously. "Then, what do you expect Kang Seulgi? I think it's a good thing to be away from him for awhile, until you forget him entirely."

"But, I can't!" I hysterically yell at her.

"That's because you're still not over him. You're not wanting to let him go, are you?

"I remain silent for a moment, can't find a right word to speak more.

Wendy was right, I'm not even ready to let him go. I didn't prepare anything right at all. I should've known if I told him about my feeling I have to be ready to lose him too—something that I wouldn't want to happen in my life but it's now happening.

"Listen, Seul. You're not the only one who suffers here. Mino too." Wendy says, her eyes are never leaving mine. "He might be feeling surprised with your sudden confession and you, someone whom he sees as his beloved best-friend and suddenly you told him that you love him, of course he would freak out."