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" What got you to the point, that point of anger?"
Lisa gave some sort of sarcastic laugh sighing as she finished. " When he started to disrespect me by bringing his child to my house."
He scrunched up his face in confusion stepping back a little. " I thought you were okay with that."
" No, I was okay with her mother and everything I just felt like for Pac there should've been some line of communication between us about that. Honestly I love her as if she was my own but that just... I wasn't okay with it."
" Explain that to us."
Lisa took a deep breath and nodded her head. " That was another argument but whatever."
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July 3rd, 1998
He'd come home a little while ago from her house after like a few weeks.. A little over month but it wasn't like constant. Although he was over there, he'd still come home for a little while to spend time with the boys then go back.
This particular day I don't know what he had going on but I know he had lost his mind.
I had my girls over Ti and Kim while the boys ran around doing whatever they wanted. We had been sitting in the dinning room enjoying ourselves and laughing.
" So um Kim, you good?" I asked making her scrunch up her face. " You've been acting really strange lately."
" I'm good, I'm just really feeling someone.. Might drop everybody for him." She shrugged making us gasp and fall on the floor.
" Whaaaat? Big Momma want to drop everybody for one person?" Tionne sung me giggle.
Kim sucked her teeth and smiled. " Whatever, it's not that serious."
" Yes it is, you just trying to get rid of everybody!" Tionne yelled with a smile. " Give me your little book of numbers when you're done."
" Play with ya man if he want to." Kim snapped. " Keep it up."
" I know I'm just talking." Tionne giggled. " But um, Li, how have you been ma?"
" I think I'm pretty good." I sighed nodded my head slowly. " I just don't even let it get to me, I'm trying though but I see this relationship is not that great so I think I'm leaving it."
" Because of the baby?"
" Hell yeah because of that baby!" Kim yelled scrunching up her face.
" No no, it's not because of the baby." I replied trying to calm them down. " Her mom doesn't even want to be with him anymore. They been done and she didn't want him there. It's just getting to the point that I can't take it. He's starting to push me and drive me crazy."
" Really?"
" Yeah, I can't. I'm just tired of it and it's just not worth me stressing no more. He's gon do what he want at the end of the day."
They both nodded their heads with sympathy in their eyes.
" Daddy!" I heard the kids yell as the front door closed.
" Heey, what's up?" His voice just boomed all through the living room, I didn't bother going to greet him either.
Everything got quiet for a little while and I continued talking to my girls. After we talked, we decided to see why everything was so quiet and I promise I have never felt the way I did in that moment.
