Young Love

{Missing him}

I wake up to a group text.

Brett: Can we hang out because something happened.

Lucas: Okay I'll wait outside.

Ryan: Sure

Me: Okay

I get dressed and look out my window to see everyone standing by the forest in front of my house. I fix my hair and head downstairs. I get attacked by my mom saying she wants to see me eat but I convince her to let me just leave. I go outside and Issac's checks are red and look like he has been crying. Brett too. Without saying anything we just walk to our usual spot in the forest. We all sit down. "So what's going on?" Asks Lucas. "Our dad talked to us and he said he has cancer. The doctor says they can't fix it and he will most likely die within a month." Says Brett almost crying. "Let's just not talk about it." Says Issac kind of sad yet mad. He gets up and sits on a nearby log. "So what should we do?" I ask. They all shrug except Issac. He seems more sad than Brett. But it makes sense because Brett is younger. But still Brett is really sad. The whole day we just all talked about our family members that have died and got deeper into the conversation. We ended up talking about what we will do when we grow up and what it will be like. Issac is just being really distant. He doesn't seem to want to talk to anyone. After it is about 10:00 pm Brett, Ryan, and Lucas leave to go home. Issac just stays on the log so I go to sit next to him. His hood is over his head and his sleeves drooping over his fingers. "Are you okay?" I ask. He doesn't answer and looks like he is about to cry. He puts his sleeves over his eyes. "I didn't mean to cry in front of you the other day." He says. "It's okay. I understand" I say rubbing his back my sleeves covering the palm of my hand. "I don't want you to worry about me." He says as he uncovers his eyes. They look red and tired. We sit in silence for a while. "I think my mom might just leave me, she might just walk out on Brett and I." He says. I wrap my arms around him. "She probably won't." I say with a fake smile. "She probably will." He says. I have never seen him this depressed. He is usually so happy. He is usually giggly and outgoing. I wish he still is. Imagine how tough it will be when his dad dies. I want to make him happy. I just hug him closer and he rests his head on my head. "Don't think about it right now. You are here with me and nothing bad will happen right now. Just be happy right now." I say. He hugs me tighter. We look at the clouds in the night sky. It's so peaceful. There are no cars to be heard. There is just a faint sound of a party happening somewhere. We head home and I take a shower. I go to sleep still hearing the sounds of the party. I feel not alone with the sounds of people. I drift asleep...

(5 weeks pass)

I haven't seen Brett or Issac for a while. They want to spend as much time as possible with their dad while he is healthy. They say he hasn't shown any side affects that the doctor said he would have. I have been hanging out with Lucas and Ryan. I want to see Issac. I miss him...

I wake up getting a text from Issac at 1:00 am.

Issac: Can you please meet me outside where we hangout right now?

Me: Sure, I'll be there in a minute.

I put some clothes on and go outside. My parents are gone for the weekend so I don't have to be quiet. I go to our usual spot in the forest where I see Issac. I walk over to him and tears fill his eyes. "My dad passed away just now." He says crying. I hug him. "Where is Brett?" I ask. "He is still asleep. I found my dad on the floor and I called for my mom. She called an ambulance and I didn't want to be in there so I just ran here. I'm sure he is awake now though." He says crying a lot. I hug him tighter. "I wanted to see you because you make me feel happier." He says. A tear came streaming down my face. I quickly wipe it so he won't see. I need to act strong for him even though I'm heart broken inside to see him cry. The way he cries reminds me of his laugh except he sounds more weak. His voice cracks when he cries and laughs. He cries into my shoulder bending down as I am up on my toes. He finally lets go and sits in the grass. I sit next to him. He cries even more. He seems like he is hyperventilating. "Calm your breathing." I say. He starts to calm down. He lays down and I lay next to him wrapping my arms around him. The moonlight is shining on his face. Tears stream down his face. He wipes them and closes his eyes. I rub his chest comforting him. After about ten minutes he sits up. I sit up too. "I'm scared to go back home." He says. "You don't have to go home right now. I'll wait with you until you want to go back." I say. I sit in front of him to look him in the eyes. I can see his face by the faint light of the moon. It's hard to look at him in the eyes because I can't really do that with anyone. I'm too shy. I look down and every once in a while I look up to see him staring at me. Why is he doing that?  I think to myself. I feel warn out from everything. This day went from watching YouTube to there being a death and crying a lot. I hear someone running up behind me and I let out a little scream. "Relax its just Brett." Says Issac smiling. "I haven't seen you smile like that for a while." I say. Brett comes and sits next to us. "Dad wrote us a note." Says Brett with tears in his eyes. "Can you read it out loud?" Asks Brett handing Issac the note. He takes a deep breath and reads the note.

Hi kids. I'm writing this letter because I want you to know that I love you both. You can't be sad when I'm gone. Please don't remember my death in a sad way because I am always with you. I will always be remembered by you. I don't want you to be sad when I'm gone. I won't be with you in reality but it doesn't mean that I'm not actually with you. I want to make my last words count. I love you no matter what and I know I say this a lot, but it has a lot of meaning in it...
Issac starts to quiver in his voice.
Take care of yourself, each other, and mom for me. I want to make my last words to tell you that there is a million dollars in the-
Issac laughs and so does Brett. "He told us that those would be his last words multiple times when we were younger." Says Brett. Issac has tears in his eyes but is laughing. I miss his laugh. It's so cute and uplifting. "I'm going to see if Lucas and Ryan are awake." Says Brett. "They probably aren't." Says Issac. After a while we get a text in a group chat from Lucas and Ryan. "That said they are coming." Says Brett. They eventually come and we tell them everything that happened. We sit there for a while talking. It's now about 3:00 am. "I don't want to go home. I don't want to see dad not there." Says Issac. "Me too." Says Brett. "It's so cold." Says Lucas. "You guys can come to my house. My parents aren't home." I say. "Sure." Says Issac. "Okay..." Says Brett. Ryan and Lucas agree and we head to my house...

*END OF CHAPTER*
I'm a lazy cunt
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Anyways BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!