I feel real bad you guys
I'm still fucking in love with her
why am I like this
I ruined it
she probably doesn't even want to remember my name
plus I'd be fucked if anyone found out who she is
I'm not a favorite
I wished I never fell for that sack of shit who made me lose her
it was my doing. I hurt her. I ruined everything for us. We could have worked out. We could still be together. I wouldn't still be hating myself over this. I would be happy. With her.
now I'm just an angry, lonely person who had their chance, and blew it. Blew it harder than Paris Hilton. I messed up.
I don't even know if I'm gonna post this. It's too personal. It hits too close to home.
I hate myself for it, and she knows that. yet she still says sorry when I tell her karma caught up to me? None of this was her doing. None of it.
I should've stayed true. I should have listened to my friends. I should have talked to someone about it. I should have thought about it more. Should've, would've, could've.
but I didn't.
