Sickeningly Sweet

Chapter Fifteen

  Henry did exactly what I asked, more like demanded him, to do. When I got back to Amandas room I started bawling my eyes out.  I didn't care who was close enough to hear.  I needed it.  Things could have been so different.  I could have loved him, I kind of did, but I cant change what happened.  The thing that sucks is that he still trusts me.  So I can still read his mind and I cant control when it happens.  It is kind of beneficial now that I got the note from the Head.  It doesn't mean that I automatically forgive him.  I dont even know that I want to let him explain.

   Yet Henry knows when I am reading his mind.  I know he knows because I feel him sense my mind in his.  So, he challenged me to a fight.  If he wins, he gets to explain what I heard and I have to move back to his room, but if I win he has to leave me alone.  He forgot one thing, I never lose.  EVER.

  When I arrive at the training grounds I see Henry at the mats.  I have never wanted to kick his ass so bad.  He betrayed me and for all I know he could be the one that shot my shoulder.  Yes he was the one that fixed it, but that could have been an act.  For that I will have to do more than just a couple punches to his face.

   I reach the mat and he has a look of shock in his eyes.  I guess he didn't believe I would come.  I was thinking of staying in Amandas room, but that would make me a coward.  Time to get down to business.

  We circle each other both pairs of eyes locked in a fierce gaze.  I attack first and take Henry to the ground.  I spring up but so does he and I laugh.  Maybe he was going easy on me that first time.  He swings at me but I duck.  I wasn't able to avoid a kick to the ribs.  I yelp on contact.

  "Damn, did you not even try the first time?"  I ask straitening up.

  I wrap a leg around his and body slam him.  He stumbles and regains balance, "I was going to say the same to you."  He smirks and I almost smile.  ALMOST. 

   That damn smirk.  I wipe it off his face once my fist creates a loud thud noise as it hits his face.  Now its my turn to smirk yet he is not fazed.  He takes me to the ground with a tackle.  Henry has me pinned to the ground, "Give up!" He growls.  I have never seen him so angry.  I place a scared look on my face causing him to loosen his grip.  I wrap my legs around his waist and fling him off me.  He hits the ground hard.  He tells me to give up?!  Has he learned nothing about me?! 

   I grab a fist full of his shirt and pull him so he is an inch away from my face.  I spit at him, "You disgust me." 

   I push him back down and sit on his stomach pinning his arms over his head in a death grip.  He growls letting his inner fox out.  I take my free arm and jab my elbow into his chest.  He yanks one and free and lands a punch on my jaw.  I gasp and spit out blood. 

  "Fine!"  I yell in his face.  He stands up as I do.  I lunge at him connecting my foot to his stomach.  He is back on the ground gasping for air.  I kick his side, again, and again, and again... I move on punching his face over and over.  So much to the point that my knuckles bleed.  I stand when I think he has had enough.

   "You lied to me!  You betrayed me, created falls trust, and took advantage of my emotions!  Do you really think you can just tell me to give up and I will give up?!  You have another thing coming ass hole because if you ever really loved me at all YOU WOULD HAVE KNOWN THAT!"  Tears are streaming down my face.  Henry is still on the floor trying to catch his breath, "The Head told me I should let you explain, but I dont know if I can."

  He moves to get up but I scream at him to stay down.  "I wanted to hurt you so bad.  Now that I have hurt you slightly I feel like hurting myself.  Why should I let you explain when you told me everything about you is a lie?  Why should I let you explain when you make me feel horrible about hurting you in the slightest way even though you were the first person I opened up to after Jason, and you took advantage of that.  You knew my mom was alive and you didn't even tell me!  You know my mom is Sugar and you didn't open your damn mouth to tell me."

  Im on my hands and knees feeling the earth spin on its axis.  Im right next to him as a single tear slides down my fac.  Im showing him that I am vulnerable and this is the last time I want to make that mistake, but something tells me I should listen to him.  But not before I tell him one last thing.

   "I was going to tell you that I love you too.  Not because the Head wanted me to but because I found that I really do.  I still do and I dont know how to stop.  I didn't love you the day that everything went to shit between us, but the day after I found that I did.  I hurt so much and that's because I have loved you all along but didn't find out.  I dont even know if you really love me.  So based off of all my reasons if you can counter them then please explain to me why I should let you explain why you work for my mother , because I really want to hear that what I found out was a misunderstanding."

   Everything as silent.  The only noise is Henrys breathing considering I am holding my own.  Im still on my hands and knees, no more tears come from me.  It was only a few sad tears that made me decide to spill everything.  A few minutes pass and he still hasn't said anything.  Maybe he wont explain.  Maybe it wasn't a misunderstanding.  Maybe he really never loved me like I thought.  I hold back tears as I colaps to the floor, "Please." I whisper.  I have never been hell bent on trying to get someone to prove me wrong.  This night has a lot of firsts for me. 

   When he doesn't speak I stand.  I have humiliated myself enough, if he wants to keep his mouth shut now that's his problem.  He can take his words and shove them up his ass for all I care.  Ive made too many mistakes with him.  So I straiten my hair and my close turn to him and speak my last words to him.  "Goodbye Henry."  I turn and start to walk.

   "Rose!" he calls after me with a crack in his voice.  I turn to see that he was holding back tears of his own.

  I dont move towards him but I look at him and wait.  Then he stands.  "Because you stopped reading my thoughts before I could complete them.  Because you heard something you didn't like and ran from me.  Because I never made any false trust between us.  Because that kiss we had was filled with so much emotion that I couldn't fake it if I tried.  Because you know all of this is true and because deep down you know that I have always truly loved you and that I still do."  He doesn't get any closer to me than the distance that I had created when I got up and started walking away.  He doesn't have to close the distance for me to see the tears streaming down his face.

   He doesn't wait for me to reply and tells me everything I didn't hear.  He tells me he was given a job by the head to watch Sugar and also to watch me.  For the whole time that I have known him, he has been spying on me and Sugar.  He is the commander of his army and no doubt always will be.  The fake mariage was really so Henry could keep a closer eye on me.  He wasn't supposed to get emotionally attached but he did once he found he was in love with me.  That wasn't until he proposed.  Sugar is planning to kill me sooner or later so the mariage was a necessity.  Henry found that sugar no longer wanted to kill me in my sleep but face to face so she can meet her daughter properly before disposing of her i.e me. 

    "Stop!" and his voice goes quiet in my head.  I didn't realize he wasn't saying it out loud.  I also didn't realize that we were now sitting side by side.  When did he walk over here?\

"Why should I believe you?"

"Because you already do." he smirks.

Hes  right.  I do believe him.  And its not because I know when he is lieing.  I would have Amanda mix up a truth serum later, but maybe I dont need it.

"I have one more question.  Were you the one that shot me?"  If he says yes there is no way in hell that I will ever see him again.  Not if I could help it.

"No."  I let out a breath that I didn't know I was holding.

 I have so many other questions but they can wait.  Henry hides his head in his hands.  I hug him and he pulls me onto his lap.  "Im sorry I was such a bitch."  I say.

  Henry puts his finger to my lips as he burries his head in my neck.  Sparks bursts from where our skin touches and I kiss his finger.  He moves his hand away but only to wrap his arm around my waist.  Ive missed him.  Henry sighs in relief, "Ive missed you too."  He kisses my neck.  That's how I know.  I trust him again.

Yet I cant help the nagging thought in the back of my mind.  What if I made a mistake by not leaving when I had the chance?