Falling for a Gallagher

breaking down

I wake up to the smell of breakfast. It's been a month since I moved in with my favorite red head. I look to see him sound asleep. I smile at the sight before me as I get up to get dressed.
I head downstairs and see breakfast ready on the table. I grab a plate and sit down. I hear footsteps from upstairs and soon ian was behind me. Except something was different, he seemed down.
I look up at him and he looks down and smiles. I knew that it wasn't real but I smiled back knowing we could talk later.
Ian sits down beside me and slowly eats. I put my hand on his leg and he looks up.

"Are you ok?" I ask.

"Yeah mick I'm fine" he says.

"Ok just making sure" I say.

I continue to eat and then head outside for a smoke. I hear the door open and then ian sits down beside me.

"So you gonna tell me what's wrong now?"

"I feel like shit, I don't know what's wrong, I barely could sleep last night" he says.

"Oh."

I pull him into a hug and then I hear him crying. I rub circles on his back and just comfort him.

"I love you" he says.

"Yeah I know, I love you too" I say.

God this kid was making me soft. I honestly didn't care cause my feeling for him took over awhile ago.
We get up and go back inside. Fiona gestures me over to her, and I squeeze ian's hand before following.

"Um I think he's going through, what our mom is" she whispers.

"You mean depression, yeah that could be it" I say.

A little tear fell down my cheek.

"You gonna be ok mickey?" She asks.

"I don't know fiona, I hate seeing him like this" I say.

As I stop my tears, I put on a smile and I go upstairs with ian.
As soon as we are in his room I kiss him. He seemed not into it, or in the mood so I stop. I just look at him and caress his cheek.
He lays down, so I lay down with him and pull him close.
I felt all this sadness, the energetic red head I knew, it's like he's gone.

"It will be ok" I say.

I don't hear anything. I look over and he's sleeping, so I fall asleep too.

***

"Hey wake up" I hear someone say.

I look up and it's lip.

"What do you want?" I ask.

"Follow me, we need to talk" he says.

We walk outside so I pull out a cigarette.

"Um so fiona told you" he says.

He was talking about the depression.

"Yeah."

"He's not going to get up from bed, you know" lip says.

I felt the tears already coming.

"Yeah I know" I say.

Lip just puts his hand on my shoulder.

"Dude I know how much you love him, your going to have to fight hard with him through this" he says.

"I know, I just hate seeing him like this, it hurts me" I say.

"He's changed you milkovich."

"Yeah tell me about it" I say.

We head back inside and Ian looks better as he's making breakfast.

"Hey hot stuff, you hungry" he says.

"Yeah" I say.

I knew this mood wasn't going to last, so I was going to enjoy it.
He gives me a plate with dippy eggs, toast and bacon.
As we ate, ian told some wacky stories about random shit.
I laughed cause they were quite funny but I knew I had to hold it together.

"Mickey" Ian says pulling me out of my thoughts.

"Yeah" I say.

"I love you."

"I love you too" I say. I place a kiss on his cheek before I continued to eat breakfast.

God I hope nothing happens to my little green eyed redhead.