The One

The Goodbye

Seems very weird but we have been married for six months now. It has been like forever but at same time this months went by so quickly. We are happy but from time to time we have a couple of aurguments, but which married couple doesn't have arguments. 

Today was the first evening that we had to spend apart from each other. It just turned out that our plans don't match. He has an important gig and there will be a producer that might singn his band so there is no way that he can miss it. While I was invited to a family dinner as I haven't seen them in ages. I couldn't say no. I haven't spent as much time with them and I wanted to make up to that with this dinner. 

For some reason I have this feeling that something bad will happen tonigh. I try to shake that feeling off. 

" Is anything wrong, you seem distant. I hope you are not annoyed that I can't join you at the dinner tonight. You know how important tonight is for me and the band. Besides I need to work on getting that house of ours in LA" he says giving me his charming smile 

"Oh no, I just feel a bit nervous. You know I haven't seen them for a while and I am not used to spend evenings without you. I guess I got to attached to you, but hey! Oh and you better get that house, you hear me"  I say and we both burst in laughter. 

"Good good, Are you ready because we need to get moving or we both will be late" he says giving me his smile once again 

"Yes, I am. I just need to get my purse and we will be out" I say while we were heading towards the door. 

When we were out at begining we were going in the same way, but then our paths have devided. Before we went into different directions, he stoped and kissed me as tight as he could possible could. My heart started to ache, I didn't know why. I just wanted to tell him how much I love him. So I started,

"Hey Dan, I just wanted to say that I love you more than ever. I know we fight from time to time, but that makes me love you even more. Everyday that I wake up I am so thankful that you walked towards me the day we met. I definetly think that we are soul mates. Some people may judge us for rushing our marriage and moving in together, but I couldn't care less as long as I am with you. You have no idea how much I love you Dan. I can't take a breath without you and  no matter what happens I will always , always love you as much as I love you now. I hope you know that. I just wanted to remind you that. You make me smile so much, you make my days worth living, you make early mornings more enjoyable because I get to see you adorable sleepy face. I don't ever want to lose you. I love you too much" I said with a tear running down my face

I can see him almost crying. I guess I went a bit over board, but I just wanted him to know that I love him more than ever. 

"Wow Amy, you always know how to surpise me. I love you so much . You make my life heaven and being able to spend my days with you is a blessing. Thank you for being here with me and not giving up when I know that lately has been a bit difficult. I hope you know that every breath that I take is for you. You know that day when we met. I never told you why I was feeling low. I was feeling suicidal. I know it sounds lame and stupid, but I was really considering it. When I got your note, my heart warmed up and all those dark thoughts have suddenly disapered. " He said and I was pretty much sobbing as technically I saved his life. 

As I was speechless I just grabbed him and we hugged for almost 5 minutes. But then he really had to go. 

"Good-bye, I love you " I say half wispering and he kissed me on my forhead and says the same thing 

He started to walk away and I tried to not look back. The tears steem down my face as I practically force my self to not look. I hear loud enginee sound but then CRASH!!!

As I look back I practically see Dan lying on the ground and the driver drives away when he sees me. I run as fast I can to Dan. Oh my God Dan please be alive. I kneeled to the ground when I got to him and lifted him up and put his head on my knees. 

Thank god he is breathing.

"Amy..."  he says in a weak voice

"Shhh... don't talk. save the energy "  I interrupt him. He ignores me and continues 

" I ... L... Love ... Y.. You"  he says and his eyes close and his chest stop breathing. 

"DAAAAAAAAN!!!! DONT YOU DARE TO LEAVE ME!!!! YOU HEAR ME? Please dont die. Please I can't live without you. I will die without you... Dan, Please dont GOOOOOOo, "

I hear police and ambulances, but I don't care. They are not going to bring him back. Nothing ever will. I don't  want to live anymore. My hope for life and future is gone. 

I am still in shock. I can't breath, I can't even cry. In my head I hear his voice. Sometimes I even forget that he is actually dead,  but then I remeber his breathless body still warm on my knees. I don't want to belive it. He is not actually dead, right? It's just a dream and I will soon wake up next to him in this bed.