New Beginnings: A Normila Story (NOT FINISHED) (CLOSED)

Part 8

The alarm begins to ring.

I reach out to stretch my arms and slowly begin to close my eyes. I feel the arm of someone moving from underneath my neck.

It wasn't a dream? I turn over and take in the beautiful sight of Normani dressing for class.

"Morning" I whisper softly and smile at her.
"Oh, I didn't mean to wake you."
"You didn't, I did myself" I chuckled.
"Good. I'm going to head to class, feel free to stay here and relax if you'd like. If you have something to do, just make sure to lock the door behind you" she says in a subtle tone.
"Yes ma'am. Have a good class."
"Thanks" she walks out and smiles before making her way to the other side of the door.

I decided to relax here for a few more minutes.

I begin to question myself. What does this mean? Does she really like me?

I could ask her all of my questions and receive answers, but there's nothing worse than receiving an answer I didn't want to hear. I wasn't ready for that type of displeasure and disappointment.

I just got out of a bad relationship, so maybe staying friends was the best option. I decided it was best to inform her of my decision. She's cool, she shouldn't take it the wrong way or be disappointed.

I didn't think it was a good time to be in a relationship. I was terrified of being used and abused the way I was before. Being cheated on, left or neglected was not a feeling I ever wanted to experience in another relationship. I was not ready. I couldn't lead her on forever; in all honesty, I don't know how I lead her on at all.

As the overthinking that has overtake me began to disperse, I decided to begin to head home. I grabbed everything that I brought over the night before and prepared for departure.

I took one final look around to make sure I wasn't missing anything before making my way out of her room and apartment. I made sure her door was locked.

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After the walk back to my place, I showered and began to prepare for class and the long day I had ahead of me.

I heard my phone vibrate.

Normani: Hey, are you still at my place?
Me: No, I just got home actually
Normani: Ok 😔
Me: Sad face? Why?
Normani: don't say anything smart lol
Me: deal, now what's wrong?
Normani: I was actually looking forward to coming back to you, that's all. I wanted my cuddle buddy. 😊
Me: cuddle buddy? lol I have class soon and work. I can probably stop by before practice
Normani: hmm.. If not, I'll just see you there lol
Me: okay 😊
Normani: have a lovely day 🌞
Me: lol thanks

She called me her cuddle buddy. That made butterflies fly inside of me. She was so cute.

I still have to tell her that we can only be friends. We can still be friends and be cuddle buddies? I need one of those.

I'm so confused at this point.

I don't want to get hurt, and this road we're currently heading can most definitely do it's damage if events don't play out nicely. There is also an opportunity for me to see if I can build a future with this girl. Which option is really worth it? It's all a game, that I'm known to be bad at, but maybe it's time to play.