Newest Shade - No Relation

August 25th, 2012

Dear Diary,

Is that how you start these things off? I'm not sure, I'm new to this type of thing. Apparently this book is supposed to have some sort of value to me and I'm supposed to guard and treasure it dearly, be my best friend while I'm away. Well.... If you're my best friend, little book, then you have to know me..

My name is Amari Jaseena Grey, but people call me AJ. I'm what some would like to call a beauty in disguise, but only because I disguise it! My long, pretty hair, I wrap up. My straight teeth, I rarely smile with them. My big brown eyes and pretty lashes? Just use them for seeing, only because I HAVE to, or I'd cover them all day. My nice curvy body? FORGET IT! I'm probably the least boasting Panamanian in the world!!! Beauty seemed to only be a block for education to me. I'm a recently graduated Linden High School student in Brooklyn and I'm making my way to college, I'm OUT! I've been accepted to Albany State, my only option in life.. If it wasn't Albany, it was NOTHING. I've been wanting to go to this school since I was 7 years old, to major in biology of course. I'm 17, born on November 27th, not like you asked anyway, but hey, you're my best friend now, right little book?

Sadly, I'm one of those kids who had a plan and let nothing get in the way.. Now that doesn't SOUND so bad.. Until I mention how I've never been kissed, never been to a party, never really had many friends. I was usually alone actually... But never mind that.

Right now I'm on my way to Albany in my parent's car, and I'm just waiting on a change to fall into my lap. I've always depended on them to do the most and more for me. But that's changing TODAY. I need to just be me, do me, and survive with just me. It needs to be understood by me and them both that I'm just not a little girl anymore. I'll be documenting my flourishing, if any at all, throughout this adventure people love to call the freshman year of college.

Freshman 15 I'll gain? You'll know about it. Any friend I make? You'll know about it. Any type of plans I attempt to make? You'll know.......

BUT WE'RE HERE! This drive was longer than long.. But it's over and I feel like I've only just begun.. Timid little Amari Jaseena is out the window, welcome to the world AJ.. Time to teach myself what's really up.

Later that day

Dear Diary,

I don't think I'm doing this right.. I have a name so why shouldn't you? LB, I'll call you LB for little book. Okay let's start this over, HM?

Dear Little Book,

I left my parents, and now it's all me.. Being at Albany, I feel like i'm going to be a TOTALLY different person. I got word that my roommate's name was Evergreen Logan. Funky name, will it match the personality I'm just waiting..

NO MORE BEING EARLY! It's a new me. I should've gotten here just in time to meet up with Evergreen right at this door, but me rushing my parents, I've been here for half an hour with half an hour left to Evergreen's arrival.. Maybe I'll just walk down the hall of my dorm hall, Shade Hall, and meet someone.. Until then little book!

Even LATER that day

Dear LB,

Nice ring to it? I think so.

Well I took a walk LB, and I met someone new! I introduced myself to him and he just looked... His green eyes? They took me away, but let me stop even thinking like that!! He said his name was Diyonero, but Diyo is just something to stick with. Me and Diyo talked for what seemed like hours but really was only 2 minutes tops. His smile was mind blowing, oh dear.

Usually? I hate attention. But I really wanted him to see me, and I've only just met this boy. Guess what I introduced myself as LB? AJ! Diyo lives right up the hall from me, in the Junior's section, so I'll surely be seeing more of him.