Newest Shade - No Relation

Thoughts of the Logan's

Evergreen

I started caring too soon. This girl. She's captured my mind, heart, and soul. I love her. But she doesn't love me. How could I let this happen. And I promised my ex girlfriend that I wouldn't let anything go down in college that I wouldn't do while she was standing in the room. But I was doing all the wrong things with this SO right girl... And I thought she was feeling my brother at first... But she told me she loved me. So I wasn't even worried about his ass no more. We were having deep talks every night... Saying we loved each other... Hell, she was my GIRL. But one night, I'd heard someone had said they'd seen her go into the off campus motel... Mikail and three other guys. But who the hell knew if that was true... All I knew was my girlfriend had disappeared off campus. I was texting, calling.. The whole nine. But then I realized I needed to calm my nerves a bit, because the day after I was OUT, back to Brooklyn... And to see Tylicia... My baby. My ex baby... Fuck. But I still loved me some AJ... I hope I'd see her again soon... Maybe she'd answer me soon... Something. So I'd know she was okay.

Diyonero

I felt like I needed her. I never told anyone... But I'm gay. Everyone always questioned why I didn't pull girls left and right in my two past years on campus but... I never said why. It was always because 'I wanted to focus on classwork.' But I just wasn't attracted to them. I had a secret attraction to nearly every single guy I hung with though. And sometimes we'd get drunk... And we'd do things... And then just emphasize on the next day how we were "SO DRUNK and couldn't remember a thing" we did the night before. Now... She made things different. I wasn't really into girls, clearly. But she wasn't any old girl. She was AJ. I needed her. She became something I couldn't go without. We started hanging out more... And then I officially made her mine. But I lost her slowly... I got closer to Mikail... Way closer. When she walked in on me and him one day I was kind of glad... She had seen all of me, like I kind of wanted her to... So when she ran off I didn't chase her to my full ability. Half of me wanted to talk to her but half of me really didn't give a damn. Tell everyone, it'd make my coming out easier. But she didn't. She ended up disappearing off campus. And I still felt like I needed her... And like I needed to know if she had kept my secret. I don't know... I kept calling... Hoping to get love returned and an answer to my questions and I was hoping I could finally explain who I am.