Book Three: It's Like a Every Other Art Book, But A Lil' Different!

So i had a dream i need a diagnosis

Forget the art
I had a dream and this time it's not all about Homestuck

So um
There was this weird party where all of my past friends gathered and we talked.

I had a HUGE crush on one of my friends
And um we met up at that party
I was busy with something and she tapped my shoulder
She looked up at me and said, "Well, I'm here now. Aren't you going to welcome me?"

I grabbed her cheeks and straight up kissed her
And she kissed back

Which gives me the impression I still have feelings for her
Like a lot of feelings

But she's gone now, and I woke up crying because I miss her

What the heck do I do
I NEED HELP
AHHHHHHH