5sos My Bullies

7: Broken

*LUKE'S POV*

I was on Twitter, reading throught all the comments Thomine got on her last tweet. She had tweeted "I'm sleepy, I feel numb and broken. I wanna die so bad😢" and her comments were all hate. Not a single one was a good. She have been quiet since then. She usually tweet a million tweets a day, but now... she have been quiet for half an hour. Did what I said to her at school today get to her...?

I did a little research and found her number. It was calling, but no answer. I texted her, saying "Are you ok? You haven't tweeted for half an hour...?" and waited.

It's been 10min, and she haven't replied yet. Should I go over...? No, what if she is fine, she's just napping? Then I come barking in her room like I just saw a ghost. Hell no, she'll know I care. After 7 years of bullying her, I can't just show up at her house and tell her I care. That's just not right... But what if she is hurt? I know her parents are rarely home... I think I heard the other day, some girls gossiping about her cutting herself.. What if she killed herself?! She was quite upset when Mikey and Alysha ignored her today... Should I go over...?

*11:07pm*
I'm lying awake. It's been an hour, and she has still not replied. Fuck this, I'm going over!

*5min later*
I'm banging on her door, telling her to open. No reply, so I touch the handle, and luckily it's open. I sneak inside, tipping on my toes around her house, trying to see if I can find her in the daek. I hear the water running upstairs, so I take the chance and walk up. "Thomine...?" I call. No reply. "I know you're here," I call again. I'm getting closer to the bathroom where the sounds are coming from. I open the door, and it feels like I just got shot! Thomine, laying on the floor, blood everywhere, her wrist cut open and a blade laying in her hand. I rush over to her, ignoring the blood and put her head on my knee. "Telly, please wake up!" I scream, hoping she's still awake. "THOMINE!!" I scream, slapping her across the face to wake her up. "FUCKING WAKE UP!!" I yell, shaking her body. I reach up for my phone on the counter and dial 911.
"911, what's your emerg-"
"SHE'S NOT BREATHING, SEND AN AMBULASE TO CARL'S STREET NOW!!!" I cry in the phone in panic.
"Ok, take deep breaths and calm down. What's the house number?" the lady on the other side says.
"I DON'T KNOW...! Umm... 27th, I think," I say and breathe heavily. "Can you send an ambulance now?!" I ask in panic.
"Yes, they will be there in 10," she reply.
"NO THERE'S GOTTA BE A WAY FOR YOU TO COME FASTER, SHE HAS BEEN LAYING HERE FOR OVER AN HOUR!!" I scream, still crying hard.
"Ok, I will send an ambulance now, coming straight over to your house," she says, reasuring.
"Ok, thanks!" I say and hang up.
I look down at Thomine. She is pale as snow, her eyes are shut closed. Her lips are a light blue colour. It looks like she is.... smiling?
I look around, anywhere but her to try and stop crying, when I see her phone on the counter. It's still on, and I see all my messages, a message from Mike and one from Alysha.
It buzzes as she get's another text from Mike that says "I'm coming over!" and then she gets a call from Alysha. I reach up for her phone, answering the call with shaking hands.
"TELLY FINALLY!! ARE YOU OK?!" she yells in the phone.
I take a deep breath, and say "Telly is... She's dead," and cry hard, holding Thomine just as hard as I'm crying.
"…What?" she asks in disbelief.
"She cut herself" I cry to Alysha, who is sobbing on the other side.
"She just got a text from Michael, saying he's coming over. The ambulance should be here at any moment now," I explain, looking down at Thomine.
"Wait, Luke?" Alysha asks.
"Yeah," I answer.
"I know this is my fault, you don't have to say anything," I cry.
"No. Me and Mike are also a part of her death," Alysha says.
I take Thomine's hand and sqeeze it lightly, looking at her face.
"She looks so peaceful," I say.
"How does she look?" Alysha asks in between sobs.
I hear banging then footsteps up the stairs.
"Michael's here," I whisper calmly.
"TELLY!?!" Michael call.
"We're in here..." I cry.
Michael comes slowly in to the bathroom, seeing us laying on the floor. I'm weak, so I leant myself on the bathtub, Thomine laying expressionless on top of me. I cry hard, putting my face in her hair, still holding the phone to my ear.
"Wh-what…?" Michael says, tears forming in his eyes.
"Luke?" I hear from the phone.
"What does she look like?" Alysha asks again.
"She is pale as snow," I start.
"Her eyes are sqeezed shut... her lips are a light b-blue," I sob, still staring at her beautiful, peaceful face.
"Oh God," Alysha says.
"What happened?!" Michael screams.
"She comitted suicide," I answer, still looking at Thomine.
Michael takes the phone away from me.
"Hello?" he says.
"Hi, Mike," I hear a faint voice.
"Alysha," he sobs.
"The ambulace should be here at any moment," I whisper.
I can feel Michael looking at me, but I can't take my eyes off of her. She's still beautiful, even as dead.
"YOU!" Michael finally says, clenshed teeth.
"Nothing we can do now, Mike. Drop it," I say. I look up at him, my eyes ful of tears. I can see he realise Thomine had a big impact in my life.
A silence floats in the room before Michael speaks up.
"We'll call you later, Alysha."
He looks down at me and Thomine, I'm still looking at Michael. He looks me dead in the eye, then drops it. His eyes travel down to our hands.
"Let her go," he says firmly.
"No," I say calmly.
"LET HER G-"
"MICHAEL, JUST DROP IT, OK!?! SHE'S DEAD AND YOU KNOW IT!!" I scream, my whole body trembling.
Trembling so much, I don't realise Thomine squeeze my hand and move. Michael looks like he just saw a ghost, then he smile and jumps down to his knees. I'm still clueless, until I look down at her, looking up at me with her beautiful, blue eyes. I gasp, and squeeze her tight. "Oh God!!" me and Michael says simountaniously.
"I THOUGHT YOU WERE DEAD!!" I yell in her ear, still holding a tight grip around her.
"I'm calling Alysha!" Michael says excited.
He picks up Thomine's phone again and dial Alysha's number. "What?" Alysha asks, still sobbing.
"SHE WOKE UP!!" he yells.
"WHAT?!" she yells back.
I hear the ambulance outside, and I release my grip on her.
"Mike, go greet the ambulance," I say, looking at him then down at Thomine again. I smile widely at her, and she smiles back.
"I'm cold," she blurt out.
"Don't worry, the ambulance is here," I say and hug her again. She snuggle her head in my chest, and my heart flutter.
"I'm so fucking happy you're awake," I whisper in her ear.
I can feel her smiling as Michael comes back in with the ambulance people behind him. He's grinning while he says "There she is," and point at me and Thomine.
"It'll be ok," I whisper again in Thomine's ear.
"I love you," I say as they take her away from me and put her on the flat board and pull her outside. I stand up, and go next to Michael. I put my arm around him, and he smiles.
"I thought she was gone," he whisper.
"Me too, but she's a real life angel," I reply and hug him. He hugs me back, and we just stand there.
The ambulance drive off, and Alysha runs up the stairs to us. I open my eyes and smile at her.
"She's a damn miracle," she say and run over to me and Michael.
"She is," I say and let her join the hug.
My heart feels like it's jumping out of my chest. I've never been this happy.
"Let's drive after the ambulance and wait there," I suggest. Michael and Alysha both nod their heads and we walk down the stairs calmly.
Normally, people would stress now, but I have a feeling it's going to be fine now. She is a strong girl, and all four together, I know we will make it throught together.