David's POV
I just lay there, beside the body of Fiona for a while, crying to myself. I read her story. Her letter went like this:
Dear David,
You are probably the last person I will talk to before I’ve decided to kill myself since like meant nothing more. I’m very sorry for breaking my promises. There’s a lot that happened to me that you don’t know about. I didn’t want to ruin your perfect life with Ann. Ever since that day at the park, 5 years ago;
my life had turned into a living hell. As you told me that you wanted to leave me, I was in so much pain. There are no words to explain the way I was feeling. It was pain like no other. Every breath I took hurt because I knew you would never be mine. I left everything happy about my life and isolated myself from everyone else.
I was in a deep depression. I had no one to talk to. No one to share my feelings with. So that was how I lived the past 5 years– without a heart
. I had only one reason to keep my heart beating: I still loved you. But it hurts too much. I can’t do it any longer…
There wasn’t one day that I lived without sadness. I would seriously give anything and everything to feel loved like I did, 6 years ago, just for a day
. I would give anything in the world to be the Ann in your life. I would lay in my bed every night, crying to myself. I would often fantasize about what our future together could have been– how happy we should have been.
Nothing killed me more than seeing you with Ann. But if you think that you belong with her, then promise me you won’t let anyone hurt you.
When you walked away that day, it was the hardest thing I ever had to do but all I wanted was to set your heart free
.
When you left that day, you took my heart with you, and a huge part of me died. There’s so much pain in my chest, blacking out, heart attack.
Life is hard; death is easier. I’ve always wondered what afterlife would be like. I guess I can find out soon. I hope you live a long and happy life before joining me.
I guess I’ve finally learned to forgive you for what you did and I learned to live with the fact that you didn’t choose me. I don’t blame you for anything.
If you’re wondering why I kept everything that was inside that silver box, I can tell you.
I kept it all because every time I saw it, every time I read it, I feel a little bit happier.
I kept it because it was the only part of you that was still mine.
It was the only thing I had left of you.
It reminded me that true love does exist in this world. David, I just want to let you know that I don’t mind dying here and right now. I’ve lived life to the best of my ability. I have none but one regret: letting you go…
So I had to pretend that I wasn’t going to miss you; and had to pretend that this is what I wanted to do.
Haha, funny thing is though, if it weren’t for me, you wouldn’t have this happy ending… oh well… I just have to take what live gave me.
I’m so sorry David for making you read this… you shouldn’t have to suffer with me. I was so scared that I’d die alone…with no one to share this with… David, thank-you for showing me what true love means. And as long as you’re happy, I’ll be okay.
Can you please take this silver box and treasure it for me and to finish my story. Thank-you! My time is almost up so I might as well finish this letter.
As for my will, I would like to have my heart separated from the rest of my body and cremated separately.
I would like the ashes of my heart to go to you and the rest disposed of nicely. That way you’ll know that my broken, fragile heart never stopped and never will stop loving you.
Take care of my heart David… From the bottom of my heart, I wish you and Ann a happy, tear-free life! Remember to keep on smiling!
Love,
Fiona
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the next chapter would be the last chapter :)
