SORRY FOR THE SHITTY TITLE ILY GUYS
Wc; 796
*dans pov*
For some reason I can tell you're not happy anymore. I don't know how but there's a look in your eyes that just beg to be happy. Every shooting star, every eyelash and 11:11 I always wish to myself that we stay together, before, when we were just Internet friends, I would wish for us to meet. And we have stayed together and we obviously did meet. But all I want is for you to be happy. I would give my life to see you smile your goofy smile again.
As the tears rush down your face I can hear you sobbing through the walls of our bedroom. I wish and I wish for you to be happy I prayed to God till I was convinced he didn't exist anymore. I just want us to be us again, Dan and Phil.
Phil I've cried for hours on end to try and figure out how along the line you lost control of who you are.
We're supposed to be Dan and Phil. The dynamic duo. The YouTube power couple for fucks sake.
We're supposed to be happy forever not take a chance every now and again to figure out if we're still holding on to the edge.
I listen to sad songs that make me think of everything that we used to have and how I want it back. I can't let you go I just can't fathom the courage.
*phils pov*
I hear you pacing and talking out loud but you sound like you're screaming when you're barely whispering. This happened because all I want us to be happy, which we aren't, not anymore at least. I just want to be happy with you again I want to kiss you and cuddle with you and hear you tell me you're in love.
I want to scream to the roof tops that Daniel James Howell is my boy and I love him more than I've ever known.
I want to lie down with you while you hold me tight and forget about everything that was ever made to hurt us.
I want to grab your hand and pull you in tight and hug you all night. I just want to kiss you and cuddle you but I feel a million miles from comfort and I don't feel happy. I can't bring myself to grab your hand or tell you I love you because I'm not who I was and I kind of want to puke and scream at the same time because I want what we used to have. Dan and Phil. And you were all I ever needed. And I want that back.
I fall asleep next to you, but the sheets feel cold. You pick up my cold hand and trace the lines in my palm with your finger. I feel your touch but it's barely there. You grab my hand and tell me just a few words "I love you Phil" but I can't bring myself to say it back so we just fall asleep together.
You wake up next to me staring at you. You open your eyes and I can see everything. The universe that lays your eyes. We're in that first minutes of the day where the world has forgotten all the bad stuff that has happened. I grab your hand and stare deep into your eyes as you do the same to me. I rub my eyes and take a clear look at you.
There's an eyelash on your cheek, I take it off your cheek
*dans pov*
You rub your eyes and as you do an eye lash falls onto your cheek just after you take one off of mine.
*third person pov*
The boys hold each other's eyelash in front of their face as they say "make a wish" in perfect synchronization. This time the two boys didn't wish to stay with each other, they didn't wish to meet each other like they did when they were younger. They both wished the same thing for the first time.
"I wish for him to finally be happy, but that he never forgets me"
And after that, the two boys were finally happy.
They woke up in the morning everyday at the same time to watch their favorite anime while cuddled up eating cereal and drinking coffee and tea.
They hold each other's hands and exchange I love you's that finally mean something again.
When they look into each other's eyes they see happiness, for the first time in forever.
*phils pov*
As Dan retraces the lines on my cold hands he then wraps his warm hand in mine and I finally realized at that moment, the exact reason why I love this man so much. Even when there was terrible times, he never gave up no matter how bad he wanted to.
