DOWN MEMORY LANE // JÜRI POOTSMANN
"You don't remember anything?" The man sitting beside my bed asks, once the doctor finishes speaking.
I shake my head.
"So you don't know who I am?" It's the first time the mysterious blonde male in the back speaks up. All this time he kept his distance while listening to the doctor talk.
I shake my head again, "I'm really sorry."
Without so much as another word, he heads for the door and leaves. I look after him confused as to why he is acting like that and why he was even here in the first place.
I turn back to the man next to my bed, "Who are you, then?"
"I'm your dad." He answers.
"Then where's my mom?"
My supposed father looks at the doctor. He shakes his head, "It's better to not tell her that yet."
He looks at me apologetically, "Sorry, honey."
I sigh, "Nobody is telling me anything."
So far I've only heard my name is Fideline, and I'm here because I was involved in a car accident.
That doesn't bring me any further. Even my own name sounds foreign to me. How am I ever supposed to remember anything?
I've lost my memories, I've lost my past. I've lost my life.
And I don't feel like I'm going to get it back anytime soon.
***
I sit on the bed cross legged. A picture is in my hand. Suddenly it was there when I woke up this morning.
I tracy my finger over the photo. I look so happy in it, though I have no idea when and where this is taken. And most importantly, I still don't know who that guy next to me is. He isn't looking at the camera, but instead at me.
Slowly I begin piecing the pieces together.
"He's been here every night holding your hand while you slept."
I look up at the sound of the doctor's voice. He stands in the middle of the room. "That guy is so hopelessly in love with you. It breaks him that you can't remember him."
I turn my gaze back to the photograph laying on my bed. "I really wish I could..."
"With time." He reassures me, but it doesn't really work. "I'll come back to check on you later."
I don't realise someone else walks into the room at the same time the doctor leaves.
When I look up, I see the blonde male. He hesitates when walking in to the room, but then reluctantly takes the seat next to my bed.
"Hi." He whispers.
"Hey." I smile sadly.
"How is- uhm, I mean what- ?" He stutters, "Never mind."
I shake my head. "Not much yet, but I think I figured out who you are." I tell him and hold up the picture.
He takes it from me and looks at it, "I thought I lost it."
"Were we.. Did we date?"
He inhales sharply at my words. It's only then I realise that I used past tense.
He sighs and then nods.
"I'm sorry." I say and look at him apologetically.
"It's alright."
"I want to remember.. I really do, but I just..." I let my hands fall down in exasperation. The fact that I can only remember so little frustrates me more and more.
"But you can't." He finishes for me.
"Look at us finishing each others sentences." I joke, and I see the smile that cracks on his face.
I smile too in satisfaction.
"I have to go." He informs me.
"You should come by tomorrow." I say before I know what exactly I am saying. I surprise myself with it.
He smiles, "I will." And walks out the door.
I realise I don't even know his name, yet he still manages to leave me smiling like an idiot here.
***
The next day, he does as promised and comes by again.
"Doctor says I can go home in two days." I tell him.
"That's great." He replies but sounds a bit sad.
"What's up?"
"Will this," he point between himself and me, "be over then?"
I hesitate.
Did I want it to be?
No, certainly not.
So I shake my head, "Frankly, I don't want it to be over."
"Me neither." He whispers and shakes his head.
"I really want to hug you right now." He says.
"Come here then." I order, and sit up and extend my arms.
It doesn't hurt that much anymore.
He wraps his arms around me carefully, as if I'm the most fragile girl he'd ever seen.
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hioo this one's not particularly for anyone :) I just felt like writing it hahah
If anyone wants me to do a one-shot for them please let me know :)
I think I'll let this be part one or something so I can continue this
