Poems from my heart ~

Life of a teenage girl

This story just popped my mind!!!

Coz I'm really depress....

Chockslam!!!

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I'm worthless, fool, idiot, hard luck, WHATEVER!!!

I've dropped on school yesterday because it's really useless! I had 25suicidal attempts myself by having 5 car accidents with my 5 different cars. My parents don't care about me and my Aunt just takes care of me, she doesn't care actually and gives only my allowance.

By the way I'm Desiree Collins turning eighteen and always party all night at the bar even I'm under age. I'm a play girl and plays almost all the boys

I want! I'm ruthless, evil, cruel and all the bad words you can say is my attitude.

(phone rings)

"hullo" I answered it's me Marsha,

"hey Desiree,it's me Marsha, we'll have our gimmick on the new open bar, are you coming?" Marsha invited

"no problem!,what time?"I asked excitedly

"7 pm, don't be late!"

"i never been late!" i assured as i ended the call.

Marsha Carr, the one who called, she's my best partner in crime! from dating boys to sexing boys, smoking and drinking when Aunt Hilda wasn't around.She became my best friend. She was expelled last week, the school found out that sha had a one night stand with her Professor for her to pass the exam! She's really a gaga.

As early as nine in the morning, I'm ready to go! Since Aunt Hilda was on a trip, I can use her white Mercedenz Benz 2008 model!

I started the engine, Yahoo! I was grounded for six months, no car. My cars were junked namely, Jaguar x type, porche, bmw, a red truck and the latest, green race car. I drive fast and never care of the traffic lights as if all of them were green lights!

I saw a police car on my side mirror, "it's showtime!" I beamed running the highest speed! "bye bitch!"

I go shopping for the whole day and went to that bar, wearing a black haltered dress, red stilettos with pearls on my neck carrying my favorite Chanel bag.

Everybody looks at me as I enter flipping my wavy blonde hair.

"hey Des!!" Marsha approached on the near table

I walked with poise clacking my heels sitting next to her as I cross my exposed legs.

And the party shall start!

" Oh, excuse me Des, a hottie winks at me!" Marsha said blushingly

"alright, goodluck!" I goodlucked spanking Marsha's but sillily

"Ouch!"

I was left alone as a guy about five ten in height stands infront of me.He looks new here.

"hallo!" I approached sipping Tequila, "sit" I asked patting the sofa. He sat smilng as he introduces himself,

"umm what's your name?" I asked flirtingly

"I'm Philip" he replied on a velvet voice

"er, nice name.. I'm Desiree" I said as i took another shot.

He is so different among the guys I've met.

He's nice and his face so angelic with an old fashioned hairstyle, very neat.

His brown eyes seem to brighten as I stare at him.

"How did the wind took you here? It seems you look new here!" I asked eagerly

"umm, you're right it's my first time here"

We talked and talked and came to know each other.

He's parents died when he was 3 and his uncle was the one to make his home. He's Philip Adams,18 and is an honor student.

" I'm sure you have an inspiration." I mumbled grinning

"inspiration? girlfriend?"

"yeah, girlfriend."

"i don't have any."

"you mean you don't have a girlfriend?!" I said surprisingly

"all my life" he said shyly

"Girls now are blind! " I exclaimed lighting a cigarette

" Want some?" I said offering the cigar

" I don't smoke"

" then what are you doing here?, you drink a little, you don't smoke, you don't dance?!"I said pissedly, deeply puffing the cigar

" I'm finding myself'" he responded seriously.

Our conversation was ended for Marsha is going near us

"whoah too fast, is this your new boy? "Marsha asked clinging her arms to a big guy.

Philip and I looked at each other.I grinned and embraced him tightly. I saw him flush.

"I see, you really look cute together" Marsha complimented pinching the guy beside her.

"Who's that fellow?" I questioned pointing at the guy with my lips.

"He's my new baby, right?"

I laughed quietly staying on Philip's chest." Baby?, why not make it" I joked nastily

Marsha and her baby answered a smile as if they'll gonna do it!

"why not?, or maybe you're telling us to go?"

I pursed my lips, Marsha got it.

"yeah, yeah..Baby, gotta go!" Marsha goodbyed as they walked out of the bar. It's past eleven.

"BYE! GOODLUCK WITH YOUR BABY!" I yelled having the last puff on my cigar.

Philip and I were both silent.

I straightened, "I'm sorry for lying, i'm just really desperate on having a boyfriend" I apologized putting the cigarette bat.

He didn't say a word and just stare on me as his face go nearer and nearer to mine. We kissed.

The kiss was so intimate, different from my other kisses. It happened, he bedded me I enjoyed it,everything was like a magic and I wish it won't end.

I trusted for the first time.

of me

To be continued.....

(I need your feedbacks guys...thank a lot!! it's short but if you're interested i'll continue)

=) I'M just really sad today...