You drove us to the park
I was still wearing your jacket from halftime and it smelled just like you do
We parked and you let me play my music
You said,
"Tell me something"
And you took a drink of Dr. Pepper 10.
And I told you something
Actually
I told you everything
And I listened to you tell me so many somethings
And when I started crying
You hugged me and you told me I matter
That I am not worthless and you would care if I was gone
I remembered every time I had heard someone tell me that
Which wasn't that many
But for the first time, I believed it
You told me why you hated middle school
And then I hugged you and reminded you that it's better now
And you held me tighter than anyone ever has
I was content and calm and everything was perfect for the first time in a long time
You looked me in the eyes and told me you meant everything you said
I thought you might kiss me
But you didn't
You could have kissed me
I wish you had kissed me
You put the seats down in the back
And we lay down
We talked about everything
And you held my hand
"You can sleep if you want to."
You said
And I told you I think sleep is over rated
What I didn't tell you is that no matter how much I love sleep
Nothing could compare to that moment
The two of us,
Together,
With the stars in our eyes
Saying everything we ever thought of
You squeezed my hand as I fell asleep
We were an inch away from each other
I could feel you smiling at me
And I was warm
Inside and out
We woke up with lights in our face
Flashlights
Police lights
You got out of the car and they asked you questions
You tried to protect me, cover for me
I watched your face when they asked for our ages
I heard your voice shake when you said that you're 18 and I'm 14
I listened to you lie for me
You saw them put me in handcuffs
You covered your face when they put me in the police car
I got home and I had a text from you
You said you were sorry
That it was all your fault
You understood if I hated you
But I didn't blame you.
I wasn't mad.
I couldn't hate you for anything in the world.
I told you I didn't regret that night at all.
You told me you didn't either
The next day I woke up in the afternoon
Still wearing your jacket from halftime
That smelled just like you do
