Entwined

Upon a time

It had been days since then.

I don’t remember my yesterdays me and only hope for the tomorrows me…

I’ve always evaded everyone… Scarlett, Luneth, Mom and Dad… I can’t face them anymore with this…

I’ve longed since then that I would meet someone… that would care for me and…

But I guess luck had not been on my side ever since I was born…

No one would ever love someone like me…

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Every day as I wake up like sixteen years old or some like a child and have nothing else but a shred of memory of whom was I. I don’t know if I can continue like this anymore. I’ve been tied by this shackle of death for a long time now. If only I died, I wouldn’t have to be like this. I don’t know happiness anymore…

That is when I found myself looking up in the skies whenever I go out to that place. The only one place I can pour out all my misery. Looking up would help me stop the tears. I would always bring my journal with me to at least keep up with the yesterdays me…

Suddenly, I felt a rush of memories flow within me. I felt heat rise up in my body as I remembered a boy. He was the same age as I am. It was then I recalled I was going to runaway and he had stopped me. Is he someone I loved before because I can’t keep myself feel butterflies…?

“N-No trains come to this station anymore.” He said.

I know and that’s why I am here. I can’t say that to him. Now that I can see his features, I felt a tinge of familiarity but I guess not. “Uh…”

I can see his face turn red. Why?

"Ah, sorry. It's nothing.” He said, turning his back to me. “B-Bye.”

Today was the first time I met him. That was an encounter that last less than forty-five second.

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I found myself back here in the train station. However, I’m not alone, again. I feel that I ve met him long before I was like I am now

He moved nearer to me. But I noticed that he is nervous. "Hi. You… are you okay?"

"Hello."

"Did I interrupt you?" He said, eyeing me and my journal.

Does he find it weird? I can now feel my body tensed up. "No. Erm, can I ask you something weird? Did we meet before?"

"Y-Yeah."

I looked up back in the sky. "Really? I'm sorry. As I thought we did meet before."

"Well, actually we just said 'hi' to each other."

"I guess you're right."

Moments of silence...

Maybe he knew the old me. Maybe he knew Luneth and Scarlett. "E-Erm..."

"Yeah?" He’s face looked like he’d seen a weird girl who would just look up in the heavens.

"Do you always come here?"

"No. Just now and then."

"This is a nice and quiet place."

“Yeah, I guess you’re right.”

Since then… We would always run into each other back in this place… I can’t help but lone for more… for him more… I’m being absently minded again and selfish… I just feel like this is fate… Maybe he is the one I’ve been waiting for…

Fate.

Destiny.

Every time we would see each other I can feel the tense around us but now it’s different…