Entwined

The end

It had been days since then.

I don’t remember my yesterdays me and only hope for the tomorrows me…

I’ve always evaded everyone… Scarlett, Luneth, Mom and Dad… I can’t face them anymore with this…

I’ve longed since then that I would meet someone… that would care for me and…

But I guess luck had not been on my side ever since I was born…

No one would ever love someone like me…

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Every day as I wake up like sixteen years old or some like a child and have nothing else but a shred of memory of whom was I. I don’t know if I can continue like this anymore. I’ve been tied by this shackle of death for a long time now. If only I died, I wouldn’t have to be like this. I don’t know happiness anymore…

That is when I found myself looking up in the skies whenever I go out to that place. The only one place I can pour out all my misery. Looking up would help me stop the tears. I would always bring my journal with me to at least keep up with the yesterdays me…

Suddenly, I felt a rush of memories flow within me. I felt heat rise up in my body as I remembered a boy. He was the same age as I am. It was then I recalled I was going to runaway and he had stopped me. Is he someone I loved before because I can’t keep myself feel butterflies…?

I wound myself there at that bench staring into the skies. I heard a series of steps behind and saw a hurried expression of surprise and hope from a boy staring at me…

“N-No trains come to this station anymore, remember…” He said.

 “Uh…”

I can see his face warm up…

"Ah, sorry. It's nothing.” He said, turning his back to me. “B-Bye.”

I can see that he’s holding torn pieces of a journal… then I can’t help but cry… I can taste the saltiness of my tears…

“Wait.” I said. But he didn’t stop. “I know this is weird but… have we met before? I don’t know but when I saw that my…” I brushed my fingers to where pages of my journal were torn… “I’m sorry… I just can’t help it if you will be with me… I learned what loneliness is that made me understand happiness… all over again… I can’t sleep… without crying and keep on going back to those memories we had… I love you Will! So much that I can’t forget…”

He stopped and looked back at me. I can see his face brighten up and tears rolling down to his cheeks. “You… said that you remembered me? You remembered… me?”

“I’ve decided to let you go… but I can’t force myself to forget these feelings. I can’t erase you in my heart… I love you.” I feel my body numb from series of overwhelming emotions in me. I forced my hand work up to my face and hide my pathetic wet face.

He shoved my hands away and caressed my cheeks. I can feel my face heat up with his touch. Everywhere he touched made my heart skip a beat. I pierced my eyes into his warm-throbbing gaze. His lips found mine. I don’t know for how long but I want him so much that I don’t want to let go.

I felt an irresistible draw, luring me closer, closer. No matter what happened, I didn’t ever want to forget how it felt with Will. I wanted to imprint his touch, his taste, even the scent of him so solidly inside me that no one—noone—could take them away from me not even from myself.

Leaning in, I closed my eyes. His mouth opened under mine, his tightly reined control shuddering through his body. His arms wrapped around me, securing me against him. He kissed me harder, and the depth of my response unnerved me. My legs felt wobbly and heavy. I sank into him, and he backed us slowly down the wall until I came to straddle his lap. Brightness lit up inside me, and the heat of it consumed every hollow corner. A hidden world opened between us, one that was as frightening as it was familiar. I knew it was real.

“I love you. I am and always will.” I whispered into his ears.

“I know. I love you more than I know I would.”