Sixty Degrees (BoyxBoy)

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Jean's not one to admit that he's been having a hard time as of late...

But...

He's been having a hard time as of late.

Too many things, he's not sure if he can call them opportunities, have presented themselves in the last few weeks and he's found that juggling things between his girlfriend and his best friend is proving to be somewhat emotionally exhausting. And it's not that he wants to be in the position where he could hurt either one of them, he's just having a hard time letting one of them go.

The main problem is Jean has always been straight. Not, 'oh I'm kind of curious about that guy, maybe I can see myself with him.' No every fibre of his being has always been, 'women women women.' So of course when he met Marco earlier in the year the guy terrified him. And it's not like it was love at first sight or anything cheesy like that, nor was it the creepy stalker 'I'll follow you up to your dorm room and force myself on you,' like Yeager. No it was more of an 'I want to make you happy and spend every second I can with you because that would make me happy,' sort of thing. But Marco is a guy, and that's where Jean's problem lies.

Of course having friends that are gay has never been a problem for him. He's not homophobic, he just never imagined himself being with one of them. But Marco is different; Marco is his best friend, the one who understands him more than everyone else. Being around him is never like being around a guy; it's like being around his friend, the one person who he trusts implicitly.

The fact that Marco is gay has never bothered him one bit.

Not until lately.

It's only been in the last few weeks that Jean has noticed something different in the way he sees Marco. It was subtle at first, just small passing thoughts he had that concerned the way Marco did things, like the way their hands would sometimes connect slightly as they walked. That kind of thing never even crossed Jean's mind as being anything other than a friendly accident, until lately. It's just lately he's wanted to grab the hand that brushes his, to hold it tightly within his fingers and never let go. And the very thought of it excites him almost as much as it terrifies him.

He plans on saying something tonight, because of course he's noticed the way Marco looks at him when he doesn't think Jean is looking. He wants to tell him that he feels the same way and yet he's still scared that the brunette will reject him. Of course he would be let down easy, Marco is not the type to trample all over someone's feelings so bluntly, but it would be a rejection all the same.

He comes to a stop outside of the dorm building, his nerves hitting him full force as he imagines Marco sitting on that common room couch waiting for him, completely oblivious to what Jean is about to do. He draws in a deep steadying breath and opens the door, heading straight into the room and over to his best friend just like he always does. Marco turns towards the sound of footsteps approaching with a kind smile.

"Hey Jean. The movies all ready to go." He pats the couch next to him, instructing Jean to sit.

He hesitates for a second looking into the dark eyes of his friend. "Ah, do you think we could do this up in your dorm room?"

A confused expression crosses Marco's face before he smiles. "Yeah sure. Let me just grab the movie."

Jean doesn't wait for him before he's walking up the stairs to the second floor towards Marco's dorm. He sits himself on the perfectly made bed, once again thinking the guy is too trusting to leave his dorm room unlocked all the time. Marco appears at the door disc in hand looking at Jean with confusion again.

"Are you in a rush or something?" He enters the room. "If you have something else to do, we can do this some other time."

"No," Jean interrupts him before he gets it in his head that he doesn't want to spend time with him. "No, I just want to watch the movie. So hurry up." He winks to keep the tone light.