Sixty Degrees (BoyxBoy)

Feelings?

"WHAT?"

"Please don't ask me to repeat myself," Levi sighs as he looks down at the ground. It was an odd thing for him to do and Eren gets the feeling that perhaps this isn't what he really wants.

"B-But why? I don't understand," He stutters. Because if there is any way he can fix this, to change Levi's mind, he's going to do it.

Levi lifts his head back up, his sad eyes meeting Eren's instantly. "That's the worst thing." Pause. "That you don't know. How can you be so out of touch, so clueless that you have no idea why I can't keep this up anymore?"

"Keep what up? Levi, what are you saying?" He's almost at his breaking point, can feel the tears beginning to prick at it eyes. Where did he go so wrong? He thinks over the last few weeks only coming up with one reoccurring problem. Levi's friends. They must have said something to Levi to make him act this way. Perhaps it really isn't Levi's choice. "Is this because of your friends?"

Levi's expression hardens at the question, is he really that blind?

"No Eren, it's about you." He sighs again, silently wondering when Eren is finally going to get it. "I'm saying I don't want to be with you anymore." He pauses again, as if it physically pains him to get the next words past his lips. "At least not right now."

Eren has had enough, there's no way he's going to take the blame for something that isn't entirely his fault. "Then tell me why! Don't treat me like some child you need to hide things from. If you want to end things then whatever, fine, I can't stop you. But you owe me an explanation." His temper rises at the way Levi treats him as if he's a small child who doesn't know any better.

He laughs, though it's sad and the mere sound of it causes Eren's chest to tighten. "That's the thing Eren, I don't owe you anything."

Those words smack Eren full force. Where did he go so wrong? How did everything get so screwed up that it's come to this? Sure he can admit he's made his fair share of mistakes, but he didn't think his screw ups were enough to make this their outcome. He watches as Levi reaches into his back pocket bringing out a cigarette and lighting it. How can he be so stoic? How can he stand here being so calm as he tears Eren apart? Eren clenches his fist at his side, no longer eager to play the poor little boy. The words explode out of him, and once he's started he cannot stop.

"Everything has gotten so twisted, and I don't get how you can't see that. Your friends have twisted everything in their favour and no matter what I say or do you're going to believe them because you've known them for years and I'm just the guy you thought was good enough to fuck." Levi tries to speak but Eren continues. "You can't treat me like this, Levi. You have to understand that I have feelings." He shakes his head as if he can't believe he has to say the next words out loud for Levi to get it. "That I fucking matter. What happened to all you said the other week, you said you had feelings for me. So are they now gone? Do you really feel nothing for me?"

Levi takes a long drag from his cigarette staring at Eren with sad eyes. "Honestly, I do want to be with you Eren. But things have happened, I've seen things I don't like and so have you. Perhaps it is other people getting in the way, or perhaps we're horrible for each other, I don't know. But right now I know that I need to be away from you. Both of us need to get some sort of perspective before we try this again."

Eren perks up slightly as Levi's choice of words. "Again?" He says it quietly, as if afraid he heard Levi wrong.

Levi laughs lowly, "Well I don't think I'll be able to stay away from you indefinitely. So for now I'm suggesting a break."

"A break?" Eren asks, trying the word out for himself.

"Yes," Levi looks down at his phone suddenly, as if he were in some kind of hurry.