Love Robbery

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I was at Lela's funeral. I feel like this I where I can let all my emotions out.

"We all knew her as a fun loving spirit but she's now a spirit in the sky watching over her family." I look at my sons as they were blowing spit bubbles. I smile. I do feel like she's watching us but its' never gonna be the same. I imagined spending the rest of my life with her but not in this way. I just hope she's protecting us and helping me through tough time in the future. i'm never gonna find anyone as great as Lela, and I don't think I want to.

"Is there anyone else that had anything to say. " The funeral director looked at me but I was to over come by emotions to say anything. I feel myself raising my hand. What am I doing? I'm not doing this. "Travis. Travis would like to say something."

I stood up and awkwardly walked to the podium.

"Hi, i'm Travis. Lela's boyfriend." I felt like something took over me and I suddenly had so much to say. "Lela was my world. She still is. She's my rock. She kept me all together. The day she died, I did blame myself. I still do. I still think what if we would've waited? What if we had terminated the pregnancy? What if we didn't even meet? But then I remember everything happened for a reason. I don't know what the reason is but it did give me to beautiful healthy boys. I'm going to have some trouble raising them on my own but I know she up there watching me probably... laughing." The crowd laughs "laughing at all the mistakes I made, all the things I could've done but she knows I got this. But I know we got this. I'll forever love my Lela and i'll never forget her. Thanks."

I walk off and sit down next to my babies and look at them. Both of them looked at me and smiled and I smiled back. I knew it was Lela, I could feel it, she brought me up there, and she got the boys to smile.

Damn i'm going to miss her.