I live with your heart (literally)

Backstabbing reality..

Randhir ki pov

I propped myself up on the counter with my legs dangling in abnormal angles.It wouldn't be completely honest if I say I enjoy Sanyukta in the arms of the world's  no.1 pervert, the tag which I concluded in the last half an hour.She brought or should I say dragged me to her pre collaboration test.My Sanyu was actually trying to maintain air gap but he was hell bent on sticking to her in every single move.She looked at me with eyes begging me to take her away but I knew how this was important for her career.I love her well that is no new thing
I have always been in love..But to see her reciprocate is something out of the universe...Her love is hidden but it is there as strong as the waves as unpredictable as the lightning as unique as the polestar.I  can feel the intensity of it but she is insecure.Today morning she acted like she lost her memory.But I know her pain,what she has gone through is nothing but pain pain pain and pain....I want to heal her to keep her together in my love.My love like a wants to suck her inside the black hole of my feelings to keep her safe.

First love huh?I saw a gorgeous woman of 24 with a warm smile  and a curious face...

I smiled , shy all of a sudden.

I knew it , the whole scenario looks straight out of my past.

The heart swapping thing.

Not really.

The love part?

Yeah...You know I really don't  know how to put this but I think you deserve to know .I have been watching for a long time and couldn't help but see myself in  you.Even after 12 years story is exactly on the same old track.I normally stay away from stuff that doesn't involve me but I know how this is gonna end.

Well what is it that you are implying.

I am Niharika and I was in love with Vardhan  Suryavanshi.He was a genius  engineer but my so called love pulled him back and drowned him in the depths of emptiness.Well I know I am not hiding the sharp truth with clothes to reduce the impact but truth can't  be sugar coated.We were together for 4 years and in those years I experianced the beauty of the world through my eyes filled with true love.On our 4th anniversary I died in an accident.Vardhan is the biggest stubborn head any one would ever meet .Even after my death he refused to move on and searched for ways to connect with me.He used ouja board to reach through to the other side and I was at his fingertips all thanks to my immature heart.I was so happy to be in touch with him but what I didn't  realise was that love is life but I didn't  have it.I never knew that I would only lead him to what I am , nothing.I was not the medicine to his pain.He felt the void like I was there but I wasn't ..
The incompleteness got him crazy.He saw me he talked to me but himself didn't believe I was actually there.It is like living with some one's memories.It only increases the yearning for that person and pushes you off the edge into swirl pool of depression. The same happened with my Vardhan.I saw him tearing himself apart in his search for me..His passion for his work was long forgotten.But I was not ready to leave him as I craved for his mad love.One day he told me nothing could separate us ever again and ran out onto the road I tried to stop him but I could just scream out into vaccum.He got crushed but didn't die.For the last 12 years I have been regretting over my stupidity for which my Vardhan lies in the hospital like a living corpse..I don't  know what my story tells you even I don't know what.I have floated over searching for my answers aimlessly....Rd we are dead and we will never be able to love.....

Reality stabbed hard and deep now it is time to decide