I live with your heart (literally)

Always.....

I slowly opened it with shivering hands...The warm leather sent jolts of lightning sending me to hang by the edge of a cliff...On the first page I saw the fading pencil marks which meant nothing but raw pain...The same trend followed for three more entries and on the next page was an eye a very beautiful hazel coloured one...Somehow it was dry, emmotionles and there was something which connected it to the pencil marks and the rough strokes on the wall...the date caught my attention 24th July 2014... and I realised...all of a sudden...With our heart beating in my throat I turned the page only to witness a smile which was so plastic that it revealed the vulnerability of the person...but then the lips curved like they wanted to break the facade to come out of the lie..24th July 2015 was written underneath....Again it was all making sense to me.I just needed the last missing piece....I turned the pages but they stared blankly at me.....
I was getting nothing but I knew all that I had to know Randhir Singh Shekhawath shared a bond with me and the universe could conspire to get us together ...24th July 2014 is the date on which I started my music journal with out the knowledge of my mom......I posted it in a fake youtube account expecting nobody to actually find it.It is very ironical that I posted my journal on YouTube..But I think my soul wanted someone to listen to me no matter how ever hard I tried to cover myself up in the wrap of arrogant fame....I just had one person who listened..The eye is mine the smile is mine and my silent listener listened and saw more than what he was supposed to see...His first painting and my first journal was no coincidence .I brought colours to his life and he brought me freedom....I am special to him I murmured to myself and for the first time I felt his love overwhelming me sweeping me off my feet...I am stranded on a deserted road with my throat dry and legs limp but I just got the map to oasis....With the hope that it is actually there and is not a mirage I closed my eyes falling deeply into slumber........