Standing at the edge of the forest. The wind is blowing our hair in our faces but we don't care. Haunted with demons and our greatest fears, this forest created the bond that is us. I take your hand and you smile at me, illuminating the night. And through this dark disaster, you are the only light I see. I breathe in the air. The smell of you and nature mixed together makes me feel safe. Every bad feeling I've ever had goes away and right now is the warmest feeling I've felt. As we walk, I touch every tree. Every leaf, a hand coated in veins. Each cell working so hard to keep something alive that we crush as we walk proudly. You have a sparkle in your eye when you talk to me. Not about me. About all those that can inspire you and make you feel something to create another universe painted black and gold. And I want so badly to be one with you. One with nature. I invite you into my world, but not without warning you about the dangers hidden inside of it first. But you are brave and unmask me breaking the barrier between earth and body. I am cold. Because the wind screams our names and whips across my desolate body. You continue to unmask me. My mind getting familiar with your warm touch. And then you stop. Staring at what you have created. A stripped naked universe painted red. Painted crimson. Painted blue. Painted black. Painted grey. Painted white. Painted with such sharp brushes. You stand back and begin to cry. "My darling why are you crying", I ask. But you simply reply with a kiss on my wrist. So cold, so soft, so willing to let me forget myself. I wipe your tears with my hand but they burn me. Spreading venom into my body. And I see who you really are. In a forest filled with demons and fears, that is what you become. A siren. A demon. So dangerous yet so beautifully tempting. I bow down to you and you stand there amused. I get up and come near you pulled by your beauty. You whisper into my ear how you won't hurt me, but just make me forget the bleeding in my bullet hole filled heart. And so I trust you. Every touch sends waves inside of me that hurt me so much. But you tell me to keep going. And so I do. Crying in agonizing pain and joy. "Please, just make me forget who I am." You dig into my skin until I can feel my bones cry out and the blood rise to the throne turning the dark forest floor into a crimson red only I am familiar with. And then you bite and scratch and play with my heart like a little ball on a string. Laughing at the mess we made on the ground, you push me against a tree. I fall unconscious in my psychedelic dreams. When I wake, the sun shines upon me. It is day time and I am lost. I look down and see the mess we created on the floor. So beautifully scattered along the floor are my memories dancing in the pool of red and white liquid sprung from the sadness of the previous night. Naive little girl I become. It is daytime and you are skipping happily into the forest holding hands with my demons. The thought that you were different and that I was smarter aches me beyond the point of incorrigibility. All the demons dance around you. So in love with the siren you are inside. They do not see how captivating you are. But I do. Sadly, I am stuck to this tree and forced to watch and listen to the destruction of my soul. And me.You let them dance around you and praise you. Kissing you on your gentle cold wet cheek. And you make me watch. Tied to the tree, naked and memories scattered all over the floor from the previous night. But you won't untie me. Instead, through all your tears, you turn and start laughing. Me a helpless little child in your hand makes you burst with laughter. And I cry blood and bleed tears because the sound of your laugh makes me weak. You siren. You poisoned my ears and so willingly I let you. I let you possess every part of me because I was vulnerable and ready to be taken over. You whispered new worlds into my mind and warmed my ice cold body. And then you become a demon and make me watch as your admirers penetrate you ever so gracefully. So I close my eyes and imagined that wonderful day when we walked into the forest, only wanting to be free, Little did I know, like everyone else, how dangerous you were to me. How foolish I am. To follow you into the forest. And be the dumb person I am to think that you ever wanted to save me from myself. All you wanted to do was destroy any chance I had of becoming normal again. And you took that away from me. And I hate myself so much. Can you tell how destroyed I am? Because you took everything away from me. Because I stupidly let you. Be careful of the things that will destroy you.
