This strangers kisses were warmer than they were supposed to be. I wasn't supposed to like it. He took me in with his words. Saw a vulnerable opportunity and took it. And I so easily let him have me. He wanted to take every part of me. But be proud of me mom because I didn't. I didn't let him have me. Because I needed to keep part of myself. I needed to have part of me to destroy for when I was not around and I just wanted to destroy myself. Let me take part in the destruction of everything around me. Because I so badly want to be destroyed. And you said everything right. You told me that you would kiss the broken veins that lead to my heart. You told me that you would take care of me. You told me that you could fix me. And I so stupidly believed you. I let you have every part of me. Mind and body. But my lips, were so precious and so filled with blood. Because earlier on, you wanted to become one. And so I did. I brought my friend with me and we had fun. We painted the town red you and I. We became one and my god it felt so good. You were the only person that let me destroy myself and it felt so good.
And now where are you?
