Downfall [lwt]

Chapter Nineteen - I Need Your Love

As soon as Zayn said he had a girlfriend, I quickly thanked him and went on with my day. Not saying I was jealous, but Zayn has never had a girlfriend before. It was definitely very different and because most people thought we were a couple, he never needed one.

Two days after I talk to Zayn, I find myself sitting on the bed just packing my things in the meer tranquility of the hotel. Louis has not tried to call me once and despite the paparazzi's suspicions, Louis has not even said a word about our break up.



Written in these walls are the stories that I can't explain.

I leave my heart open but it stays right here empty for days.

She told me in the morning she don't feel the same about us in her bones.

Seems to me, that when I die; these words will be written on my stone.

And I'll be gone, gone tonight. The ground beneath my feet is open wide.

The way that I've been holding on too tight. With nothing in between.



I hear the song on the television and turn it up as I realize it is their new song, Story of My Life.

"And that was Pierced Direction's latest single, Story of My Life! What do you have to say, boys?"

"We just wanted to say that we love everyone that has supported us through this song and everything in between. Thank you so much!"

I wait for the interview to come on before I completely stop what I am doing and watch it.

"So as far as we know, only one of you is taken, correct?"

"Wrong." Niall and Louis say at the same time.

"What is going on with you and Bella?" The interviewer asks Louis. He gives her a polite smile and proceeds with what he is going to say.

"Bella, if you're watching this I am so sorry. I really wanted to tell you but I felt too bad about using you. I miss you." He quietly says to the camera and turns to Niall who falls silent.

"What about you, Niall?"

"I-I'm taken."

"With who? Who is the lucky girl that has gotten to steal your heart?"

"Finley Case in the band Melody."

The interview drags on and they just tell of their recent whereabouts where Louis stays silent the whole time. After I gather all of my things up and slide myself into bed, I still can't help this overwhelming feeling of emptiness come over me as I think more about the interview.

I slowly, but surely drift off to sleep and toss and turn during the night.

My alarm goes off in the morning and I am completely dreading it.

Time to get back to good old, California.

I throw on my Teenage Runaway jumper, ripped blue jeans, and black vans. I throw my hair into a bun and pin the flyaways in place with hair grips. I put a bun and a bow in the back of it just to make my hair seem neater.

@MissBellaJames: Going back to Cali! Will miss you, New York. Thank you for the amazing oppurtunities here! X

I send a tweet out about where I am going to be and head off to the airport. Considering it is only 6AM I am surprised at how many people show up to the airport to say goodbye to me.

"We'll miss you Bella!"

"Oh my gosh, please come back to New York!"

"Are you and Louis still dating?"

"Bella!"

"Bella!"

I quickly drown out the noises and muffled screams of girls as I turn one way and Louis Tomlinson is standing in front of my terminal staring straight ahead. I rush over to him and wrap my arms around him as I can feel myself melt into him.

"L-Louis." I stutter as he sighs.

"I know you have to get back home."

"I know. But now I don't want to go." I confess.

"We don't have much time. I just wanted you to know that I love you with all of my heart and I always have. It was just that Management made me do it and I wish I would have told you sooner."

My heart aches for him as I nod slowly.

"Kiss me." He breathes.

I nod as he puts his lips lightly onto mine and I smile into the kiss.

"Before I met you, I never knew what it was like to be able to smile at someone for no reason."

I smile as I feel tears form in the corners of my eyes.

"Louis please don't-"

"Don't open this until you've gotten home." He smiles and struts off as he leaves me standing there, wishing I could stop time.

After I get off the plane and greet Zayn and his girlfriend, I go to my actual apartment and stay there. I see I have a few calls from my Grandmother whom I thought was dead.

As we talk I realize that I haven't talked to her in years and she just realizes that I am already 18 years of age.

"I will definitely visit both of you as soon as I can." I smile into the phone as she talks some more. We hang up and I rush to my pants pocket and take out the note that Louis gave me.

I open in holding in my breath and as I read it, my breaths start increasing.





Dear Isabella James,

I am so sorry I never told you. I'm sorry I ever doubted our relationship for a minute. I'm sorry I let Management control me. But I am mostly sorry for playing your heart. I know what it is like to lose someone so dearly to you and who you love and I am so sorry.

For the first time,

I've found someone I hate leaving.

I've found someone that I can't get enough of.

I've found someone that accepts me for who I am and doesn't tell me I need to change.

I think I've found someone who I can fall madly in love with. If I haven't already...

Sometimes, people choose to leave.

Not because of selfish reasons.

But they just know that

things will get worse

if they stay.

I should have said this a long time ago.

Never force someone to love you.

Let that person perfectly fall because,

It's nicer to let gravity do the motion than forcely

grab affection without attraction.

I'm in love with you;

And all your little things.

Love,

Louis x





I drop the note and sigh as I feel like I am going to bang my head against the door.

Why didn't he want me to open it when I first got it?

More importantly, why did I listen to him?

I grab my phone and quickly text him telling him that I have opened the note.

I slump into my covers and let sleep take over me. When I awake, there is a banging at my door and I rush to answer the door.

"Bella is that you?!" A voice cries from the other side of the door.



















Hey guys! I really hope you liked that chapter because it took me 3 days to even write! Anyways, I will DEFINITELY have a chapter up tomorrow in honor of Halloween!

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