What You Don't Really See About Me

Makiah Six

     We just keep driving and driving. It feels endless but finally we arrive at The View, that is up in the mountains and you can see really far past the city. It's extremely beautiful.

     I open the door and jump out.

     He jogs over to my side. "Hey, I wanted to open that." Tony says.

     "Thank you but I have hands for a reason. I can do it for myself sometimes." I say.

     "Just trying to be a gentleman." He says with a laugh.

     "Well, I appreciate it a lot. No one ever treats me so sweet; I'm just so used to taunting from your friends and all." I say truthfully.

     "I promise that I'll either make them stop or I will stop being friends with them." He says.

     I look up at him, "That's very sweet. That would mean more than you will ever know."

     We have to hike up a little bit; as we're hiking up, mine and his hands brush against eachother, I feel chills. I know he doesn't want to hold my hand but if he were to, I wouldn't reject him. Like I've said before, he is perfect. And so far, his personality matches up with his looks. It's probably too good to be true though.

     We get up to where we're suppose to be. We sit down.

     "What are you planning on doing after you graduate?" He asks while looking out towards the city.

     I look at him and notice while he is smiling, that he has a dimple on his right cheek.

     "Well, I really don't know anymore. I really want to head to college after the summer but I'm scared to grow up and be stuck with a stupid job that I might not like. It's all just frightening to me. The world is so complex and I have such a small mind, I don't know how I am expected to take on the challenges of the real world, you know?" I say.

     He grabs my hand and looks me in the eye. "Honestly, I do know what you mean. I feel the exact same. It's really scary. All of it, including college. Because honestly, I don't know what I'm going to do after graduation. I don't even think that I am smart enough to even graduate high school. I'm a complete idiot." He says.

     "No you're not. I may not even really know you but I can tell that you are not an idiot. I don't know what it is about you but I just feel like there's more to you than what you are showing everyone. You're a complex human with a complex and individual thought process. Am I right?" I ask.

     "I mean, you have it right that I do have a complex thought process. I can't even keep up with everything that runs through my head all at once. It's all crazy to me." He says.

     I smile. "What? Why are you smiling? I knew it was ridiculous to tell you." He states.

     "No, it isn't ridiculous at all. I am just really happy that you're opening up to me. I feel like I matter when someone trusts me enough to open up to me about personal things. I love it." I say.

     "Please do not tell anyone anything that I tell you about!" He responds.

     "Of course not. My lips are sealed." I say, "zipping" up my lips and throwing the "key" away.

      "You are the best." He says then kisses my left cheek.

      I start blushing uncontrollibly. "It's dark out here but I definitely can see how much you are blushing." He says laughing a little.

     I cover my face with my hands because of embarrassment.

     "No wait, give me your hand back, I was enjoying holding it. Your hands are so soft." He says.

     I raise an eyebrow.

     He then realizes what he just said and starts blushing.

     "It's dark out here but I can definitely see how much you are blushing." I say, mocking him.

     He then covers his face, mocking me.

     "Oh stop it!" I say laughing. "We should probably go, little tomato." I add while standing up. I extend my hand so he can grab it.

     "Little?" He ask while grabbing my hand. "I'm like ten feet taller than you." He adds.

     I laugh, "Yeah, you can keep dreamin' that it's true." I say as I start hiking down. Suddenly, my arm is being grabbed. I twirl around so that I am looking up at Tony.

     He grabs my face gently and moves closer to me.

     His face is only inches away from mine when I begin to speak up.

     "Levi, stop." I say, pulling away.

     He pulls away as well and scratches the back of his neck. "I'm uh, so sorry." He says awkwardly.

     I shake my head. "Don't be. It's okay. I just don't kiss guys that I do not know well. Maybe if you take me on a second date." I say.

     He sighs with relief. "Will do." He says, laughing.

     We head home.

     Honestly, I wanted to kiss him but I cannot do that already. Too quick. I just feel awkward. I just need some time.