Just Some Random Shit

School...

I can't sleep rn
It's 1 am
Yay
I can't stop thinking about school too. A year ago from today I moved to the town i live in now. I knew no one and I was pretty much completely alone.
I was terrified of school because it was probably like 100x the size of my old school and I knew I'd get lost and not have friends.
Now a year later I'm about to go to a new school again but high school with an amazing group of friends that I never would've known i'd have.
Our school orientation is this Friday and I'm pretty much terrified to see everyone tho.
I'm not mentally okay to see people yet I have to pretend like I am. It's fucking hard.
I also have to see a lot of people I hate and want to kill. Luckily it's illegal so that's keeping me from killing them. Lots of my friends would agree with me.
There's also a lot of people that hate me from last year for multiple reasons. A lot of them hate me because I was too openly gay Last year and their homophobic asses couldn't 'handle' it.
I'm tempted to get a gigantic rainbow flag and wear it the first day of school just for those dickholes
Or I'll just stay more in the closet this year idk yet
I guess we'll see
I'm definitely gonna get lost on the first day of school and that's also terrifying
The school is fucking humongous
The middle school I went to last year was also humongous but this one is even worse by a lot
I get lost just in the music area omg please help me
I'm definitely paranoid as fuck about school
Can someone just kill me please it'd be easier.