Can't Let Go (Myungsoo/L Fanfic)

19. 8 months

Hana P.O.V

I'm already 8 months into my pregnancy and i'm so happy! I'll get to meet little Arian. The sad thing is Myungsoo has to go on a business trip today.

I'm going to miss him!

"Babe, come here" he grabbed my hand and sat us down on a bench outside. "I'll be back before you give birth" he looks down at my belly and crouches down "You aren't allowed to be born until I come back, your appa wants to be there when you're born, ok. Kick mommy's stomach if you understand" i laugh. "You're gonna be stubborn like your mom aren't you little Ji-Hun." i can feel a kick.

You may be wondering why Myungsoo called him Ji-Hun. That's his Korean name Kim Ji-Hun and his English name is Arian.

"Well then I guess you're gonna be dealing with us both" Myungsoo looks at me and laughs.

"I'm going to miss you" he gets up and helps me up. "I have to get going. Are you going with me?" yes.

I nod my head and we head to the car.

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"I promise I'll be back before Ji-Hun is born." I nod "You haven't said much, are you feeling ok?" i'm just don't want you to go

"I'm going to miss you" i say, trying not to cry.

Ugh i hate hormones, they're everywhere.

"Don't cry please. I'll be back in 2 week I promise. I'll call you every day and night." I feel horrible

"Ok. Text me when you arrive" I hope everything goes as planned.

"I will. Be careful, if you need anything remember you have a nurse at home to help you. If Ji-Hun decides to pop out before he's supposed to you call me in a flash ok" i laugh and nod my head.

"Ne oppa, don't worry i'll be fine. I know how to take care of myself" he smiled and kissed me.

"I know. I don't know what I would do if something happened to you or Ji-Hun. We've gone through to much and made it out together. I love you" i kissed him and he smile through the kiss.

His plane was called and he had kissed me a few more times and said a few more things before he left.

"I love you.... I'm sorry" i walk outside and walk to the parking lot.

"Mary everything ready?" i had called her once i was in the car.

"How did I agree to this? There must be a better way" there isn't.

"Mary is everything ready yes or no?" she sighs

"Yes everything is ready. Before he comes back everything will be ready." good.

"I'm sorry Mary but, it's better this way, i told you from the beginning and its gonna happen" she tried convincing me not to do it.

"Mary, i've made up my mind" i'm not going to change my decision.

"Ok if you say so. Just know that when he finds out he is going to be furious. When?" idk soon.

"Soon. I'll inform you the day it happens don't worry" i was worrying, but this has to happen.

"I hope this works Hana." i hope so too.

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Arian has been kicking a lot more lately, but i'm guessing he misses Myungsoo. I miss him too.

"Little Arian you miss appa. I miss appa too" i hold my belly checking if he'll respond.

Nothing, he probably fell asleep. I walk into my room and get a piece pf paper and a pen and start writing a letter.

I'm almost done with the letter and I get a call. It's Myungsoo. Well seems that he's coming home tomorrow. His plane leaves in the morning.

I need to get my plan into action.

I informed Mary. She still isn't happy about the whole idea but its the only way. No body else knows but her and Aiden. My agency in New York knows. They promised to help me through everything and not say a word. I feel horrible for not telling my family.

"I have everything ready. He won't know, you won't hear from me or Ji-Hun." i'm doing this to protect us.

"Good. This is for the best. I don't want you coming back. Ever or you know whats going to happen to you and your baby" why those this have to have. Why like this?

"I know don't worry. I wouldn't want him to grow up with someone like you" i had just insulted her.

"Oh sweetheart the baby would grow up better in my arms" she was offended.

"No no he wouldn't. Not with someone possessive and obsessed with something that will never happen. Now if you'll excuse me I have a plane to catch" i hung up on her and walked inside the airport.

My flight was called and i called Myungsoo before I boarded the plane. He didn't answer so i left him a voice mail. I started walking to the plane entrance and looked for my seat.

I sent Mary a message telling her and she said everything was ready. I put my phone away and looked out the window. The plane was taking flight and as we got higher everything got smaller. I felt horrible for what i was doing but i have too. I'm protecting Ji-Hun from harm.

Tears were rolling down my cheeks and i kept looking down and i couldn't see buildings or anything anymore. All i could see were clouds.

I love Myungsoo, but i can't stay here if that causes me heartbreak and him. I won't let my baby get hurt from his mother.

I'm sorry Myungsoo. Please forgive me, i hope you understand that i have to do this. I love you and will always love you. No matter what i will always have you with me.

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