My name is Rebel

Part 13

I lost count of the days I have been walking with Cole in order to find the rebels. i think this is day 3- no 4- wait.... yea i definitely lost count. I was on my feet for about four hours now and they were screaming out for me to stop but I knew that i had to continue. I looked up at the blue sky, birds were singing the wind was cool. you would think the world was a happy peaceful place from where i was standing but the truth is the world is so far from that.... Thoughts of my mother invaded my mind..... the ugly truth is our world.... or better yet the people who live in it. 

I felt Cole take my hand in his and give it a small squeeze, i smiled at him. He looked so tough and unbreakable unlike me, i wish i was more like him and less fragile as my dad called me. I hope my father and Brothers were ok.... ever since they were taken i had no information about what was happening to them. 

I turned my head to look at Cole smiling at me. 

"what do you think is happening to my father?" i asked him 

The smile that was on his face faded. "You are better off not knowing" 

I stopped in my tracks not accepting that answer. Cole stopped as well and sighed while turning to face me. 

"Tell me" I begged. but he shook his head. 

"Cole..." I nudged his shoulder. "Please" my hand trailed down his arm until i held his hand. 

He closed his eyes. "Is he dead?" i voice came out as a cry. 

His eyes popped open and he quickly shook his head. "No, no.... Although he's probably wishing he was by now" he whispered the last part. 

"what do you mean" i let go of his hand. 

he sighed again. "Your father is probably being asked a lot of questions...."

"thats all?" i raised my brow at him

"no..... He's probably being tortured while being asked" he looked away as i gasped. "No" I shook my head...

"Alivia i'm sorry...." 

"What kind of information could they get out of him.... he knows nothing..."

"They don't believe that"

"How would you know that?" i ask....

Suddenly the birds stopped singing and the wind grew stronger the silence hugged us. 

"I asked you how do you know??" 

"Alivia pleas- "Tell me"

"I WAS THE ONE WHO WOULD ASK THE QUESTIONS AND ORDER THEM TO... TO DO WHAT THEY NEEDED TO" He yelled at me

"you what?!" i asked shocked 

"Thats how I met your brother" he ran his hand through his hair. 

"what are you talking about?" 

"We.... the standers managed to catch your brother....  he was immediately transferred to me and i had to investigate him.... your brother held a lot of information and he wouldn't answer any of my questions" i started backing away from him and shook my head...

"Alivia...." he walked towards me and tried to grab my hand

"dont!" 

"You have to understand i was brainwashed back then, i had no idea what i was doing"

"you were torturing a person.... wasn't that enough" 

The wind grew even stronger and trees started shaking like crazy... i felt small drops fall onto my skin. 

"I wasn't myself back then, I did what i was told.... you have to understand i had no choice"

"everyone has a choice" I shook my head. 

He shook his head and looked around until his gaze was back on me. he took some steps closer and grabbed my hand. 

"Don't touch me" I yelled and grabbed my hand back 

"Alivia" he yelled again and stepped even closer. out of nowhere he ran to me, grabbed me by the waist and threw the both of us aside. i heard the loud thud, next to us laid the tree behind me... it would have crushed me. i looked up at Cole... who once again saved my life... but then remembered what our conversation was about. This was a storm.... a wild one.

"get off me" i pushed him away.

I started walking away, i picked up my pace once i heard him coming after me. tears filled my eyes and were spilling down my face. how could he?! torture someone.... i can't even imagine what my brother went through.... what my dad and maybe even my brothers and going through right now....

i was now running i knew i was wasting my breath and that he would catch up to me but i didn't care, this was too much. as I thought, I felt him grab my hand and twist me around, i lost my foot and fell, great he was on top of me again. 

"How could you" i cried while placing my hands on my face

he sighed and removed my hands. "Im sorry" 

It was silent for quiet a while..... he sighed again and shook  his head

"You were right...." I looked at him.... "We can't do this" 

I knew what he was talking about.... we couldn't be together thats what he meant.... after i let my walls fall, after i kissed him, after i let him in.... this is what he does... i knew it... i knew from the beginning that i shouldn't get into anything and here he was breaking my heart.... I felt actual pain.

I sniffed as more tears blurred my sight. I pushed him off once again. 

"we should get going" i looked away. He got up and we walked away in silence....