Don't Tell (Emison)

Chapter 4

Alison's POV

We were all dancing together like crazy, but anyway we were close to our dance partners. And I guess Emily was mine. Even though it wasn't official, it was clear. It's not that I didn't have anyone else to dance with but I just wanted to stay with her, maybe with the excuse that I didn't want to leave my bestfriend alone. But to be honest, I really enjoyed it. Emily is a great dancer. She has taken dance classes too. But her moves were something else. They were incredibly sensitive and I really loved that. But just after we were partying insanely, the DJ changed the song and it was a slowdancing kind one. And I just got so nervous. Emily was looking at me and I didn't wanna make her feel bad or rejected but...but there were just so many people. I couldn't stand slowdancing with a girl in front of everyone's eyes. I just had to drop it. I had to go. I wanted to say something but all of a sudden Emily just came closer to me and wrapped her arms around my neck pulling me slowly even closer to touch her body. I wanted so much to just keep on doing that. I swear I wanted but that was completely inappropriate  in that place and that moment. All eyes were on us. I could feel my breath becoming heavier. I couldn't take it no more. No, that was wrong! People would misunderstand...

"Emily,I..." - I started to say but I couldn't say the rest of the sentence when I saw how happy she was looking. I didn't wanna ruin that moment. But it was really awkward. I really couldn't do that.

"Everything alright, Alison?" - she said while disappearing gradually the smile on her face and replacing that with "the concerned - look face".

"Emily..." - I couldn't find the words again. I just didn't wanna be the one who screws everything up once again.

"Oh, right, you're feeling embarrassed to dance with your girl - friend in front of people, aren't you?"

"Em!"

"What?"

"I...I need to go to the bathroom." - I lied and took my hands away from her waist without even letting her say anything else and went straight to the bathroom. Or should I rather say "straight to nowhere" cause I had no idea where the bathroom was. I turned around to ask someone help me find it and I just saw Emily laughing. "What's so funny?" - I asked her.

"Sorry, but the bathroom could be anywhere else but that way. Come this way, Ali." - she showed me the way.

"Have you been here before?" - I asked.

"Where? In the bathroom?" - she said but I know she was joking.

"I'm serious, Em. Have you been partying here before? Because seems like you know this place perfectly."

"I just follow the instructions, baby!"

"What instructions?" - I asked but then she pointed at the arrows placed above us that take you to the bathrooms. I laughed at myself and she just smiled.

"Alison, no! That's men's bathroom!" - she shouted when I got in the bathroom. What the hell? I got outside and saw "the girl wearing a dress sign". Emily burst into laughs. She was joking.

"I fooled you, Alison. I did!" - she couldn't stop laughing.

And I couldn't help but join her. I was so distracted, I had lost it all. And I didn't know what was actually wrong with me. I wasn't feeling as confident as always. I was shaking. God knew for what reason. I was getting emotional. I just...I just wanted to let that all out. It's like there was a ruck stuck in my throat. I couldn't control myself. I got in the toilet and Emily was waiting me outside taking some pictures in the mirrors.

"Alison? Are you okay?" - Emily asked worried after she might had heard some noises that would sound just like me crying. I was trying so hard to hold the tears back and to not let any sound out but it was impossible. "Alison?" - after she called me for the second time I gave up and started to cry out loud. She got silent and I just opened the door to face her so close. She was leaning her weight on my toilet's door and when I opened it she fell right over me. I grabbed her waist to prevent her from falling. But when I touched her the chemistry began to make its work again. And I just couldn't let her go one more stupid time. I felt like I was gonna die if I just let her get away from my arms once again. She wasn't making any single move. We were frozen. It's like the time stopped. One side of my mind was telling me to drop it and just run as fast as I could. And the other one, well the other one just said "Do it!" And the second one echoed endlessly through my ears. I finally squeezed my hands placed around her waist and pulled her closer to me. I just gave my lips the chance to taste what they had been waiting for. It lasted for two seconds and after we locked eyes I kissed her soft lips again. This time my wicked tongue couldn't stay locked so it asked her mouth permission to get in. At the first time it licked her closed lips but it didn't last long until her mouth slowly got opened allowing my tongue to feel her satisfying orange taste. Our tongues touched and soon we were tasting each other. She was trying to get it nice and slow but I just couldn't get enough. I felt like I finally found what was missing in my life. We were kissing so passionately that we almost forgot that was a public restroom. I wanted to get my hands all over her body and feel it all. So I just grabbed her hips in my sweated hands and lifted her body up without interrupting our hot French kiss. I took some steps towards without moving from that position and I sat her on the top of one of the sinks. I slowly opened her legs and placed my body in the middle of them. This time she let a soft moan out and squeezed my hair while pulling me even closer even though I think it was physically impossible. It was just the crazy desire and the fact that we've been wanting this for so long. I thought that Emily was the only one but after that I couldn't deny it anymore. At least not to myself. And I just felt so stupid for wasting all that time. I thought I couldn't love anyone. I thought something was wrong with me and my heart was colder than others. But the only thing wrong with me was the fact that I had been torturing myself for too long. And with that I didn't only hurt myself but even someone whose heart never stopped beating for me. I destroyed Emily's life. She deserved better than me.