Silently I Wait

Day 24

It's been weeks since Jaime has looked at me.

It's been the same routine for me everyday for the past 23 days.

I'd wake up, somehow find the strength to get out of bed, shuffle my way to the bathroom for an awakening shower that was always alarmingly cold at first. After my shower, I'd move my way downstairs after getting dressed, and eat whatever was available.

The only contact Jaime and I had even made was when he slapped my ass as I walking by him one day. I ignored it, obviously, but on the inside, I was dying. I wanted nothing more than to attack him and pin him to floor as I vigorously made out with him. But, I couldn't do that. I couldn't do a damn thing but stand there and look pretty and innocent, and wait for the boy of my dreams to notice me. I guess the ass slap was technically him noticing me, but it didn't feel that way in all honesty.

I've kind of been lost without his guidance for the past 23 days. Used to, he would always encourage me to go do things. But ever since that kiss, things have been weird. Things haven't been normal. Maybe I was just making it weird, or maybe Jaime actually genuinely wanted nothing to do with me. I didn't know if I should make the first move to talk, or if I should wait on him to talk to me.

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I was walking down to the kitchen like any other day when Jaime stopped me in the hallway randomly.

"Hey." he said.

I paused in my tracks and stared at the wall behind and studied it's every spot as I spoke to him absentmindedly, "Hey."

"What are you planning on doing today?" he asked.

"Uh, nothing much. Just what I usually do everyday." I said as I quickly became invested in the black spot on the wall

"Well, uh, I was thinking we could go out or something."

This brought me back to the real world.

"What?" I asked.

"I was thinking we could go out." He repeated himself, now twiddling his thumbs

"Like out in town, or?" I was so shocked he was talking to me, that I immediately assumed he meant go out as go out. Like the thing that friends do when they say "Will you be my boyfriend/girlfriend", but I soon realized he just meant go out as in go out in town, walk around, be another citizen walking the streets.

"Yeah." He said. He then laughed sarcastically.

"I mean, I have to get ready..And..Aren't you still mad at me?"

"Um..I was never mad at you." He said, having a real laugh along with this statement this time.

"Oh." I said.

There was a brief moment of silence before I started up the conversation again, "Well, I mean. Ever since the night at the restaurant, you've been avoiding me. So, naturally I thought you were mad."

There was another moment of silence and Jaime walked closer towards me in the already confined area we were in. I backed up, but with two steps, my back touched the wall. Jaime reached his hand out and cupped it around my cheek. I struggled for a breath slightly as he kept walking closer and closer.

"Wh-what are you doing." I mumbled below my breath.

"I haven't been the one ignoring you." He said, his breath hitting my lips as he spoke.

"What do you mean?" I whispered.

Jaime lifted my head to where we were making eye contact. "You've been ignoring me. You think I'm mad at you. You think you did something wrong. When, in fact, I was the one who kissed you. I was the one who decided to make the move, and you went along with it. But, I know why you've been ignoring me. You think it's wrong. You think it's wrong to like me. But, Vic. It's in no way wrong. However, it is in all ways right."