You're My Antidote

Awkward - Part 9

Dans POV
4:36 am

Oh fuck why did I think of doing that. Why did I think having sex with __ while she was tipsy was a good idea. She probably doesn't even remember anything. Oh shit. What if she didn't like it. I'm so scared of how she is gonna react when she wakes up. What the fuck am I doing. It's been done and it's now the past. If she was ok with it then the relationship is in tack but if she didn't like it then she's just gonna leave me. That's what all my 'friends' did when I did a dumb thing. I'm afraid for what's gonna happen between me and the most beautiful girl that I have wrapped up in my arms. I love __ so much. I wouldn't be able to survive without her. My life would go to ruins. Fuck it. I need to sleep or else I will not have any mental strength to explain anything to her.

__ POV
7:53 am

I opened my eyes a bit as I was waking up. It was too bright for how early it was. I looked around and saw that Dan was still asleep with his arms around my waist. He likes to keep me in his arms as we sleep since he always thinks someone is gonna take me away. I don't think so but that's how it is. I continued to look around and I saw that I had no shirt on. Did Dan and I have sex? Oh god. We had sex and I don't remember. Shit I was getting drunk last night. I took too many tequila shots. Was Dan drunk too? Was this a mistake? Shit. My first time with him and I don't know how it all happened. Fuck fuck fuck fuck. Fuck a duck goddamn. I hope Dan knows what happened. I started to sit up to go to put on some clothes and go to the bathroom but Dan caught me getting up. "Morning sunshine" Dan said squinting his eyes as he sat up. "Morning" I replied with a low tone with my body facing away from him. "You ok __?" I didn't reply for a few seconds and I grabbed the closest t-shirt that was on the floor. It was his MCR shirt and I stuck it on. It was big on me and it went down to mid thigh in me. "Um... Dan" I looked at Dan as he was messing with his hair. "Yeah babe?" We looked each other in the eyes for a second and then I looked down to my lap as he kept his gaze on me. "Did we do something last night? Like in bed?" "Y-yeah." As he said that I looked back up to him and looked sad. I could tell something was messing with him. "Babe... I love you and just wanted to know. I was sorta drunk last night and I don't remember much but I'm pretty sure you did good. Honestly, you were probably the best. It's ok. You don't have to be guilty about it. I was hoping we would do it to be honest. I love you Daniel James Howell and you need to know that." Dan blushed. "S-so you don't remember what I said last night?" I shook my head to say no and he looked down. "Tell me. I won't judge." He looked back up to me and sighed. "I lost my virginity to you. The sex was your birthday present along with something else that is being shipped late." I smiled to him and hugged him. He hugged back and we smiled. "Now stop feeling guilty. I love you and at least you didn't get raped to loose your virginity so be lucky. Now let's get dressed dork." I said to him and I went to the bathroom to take a shower.

Dans POV

She's not mad and she didn't judge me. I love her.