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Update.

Hey everyone! It's Nickel :)

I just wanted to kinda give you guys an update on everything at home since I told you guys about my little brother.

Everything is going well. We're sixteen days out from my older brother getting married so things are a little hectic but it's good. I haven't felt suicidal in a while and I haven't self harmed in six months!

I've been seeing my therapist as often as I can (she lives in a different city) so it's been good with her. She's been walking me through how to deal with the trauma of living through what I have. It's helped a lot.

Ive been sleeping better! I'm not having as many nightmares as I used to and I've been able to fall asleep a little easier than before.

I just saw him for the first time since December. It was okay. He's doing good this week and actually agreed to see my mom. I went because my mom had just picked me up from a friend's and the other option was to have me sit outside in the heat. I saw him and it was okay. He spent a lot of the time talking about the books he's been reading. I was surprised he wanted to talk at all, let alone to me and my sister in law.

I'm doing okay and I'm not as shaken up as I thought I was going to be. I was nervous and on guard, but I'm kinda glad I saw him.

Thank you for all your encouragements and kind words, it's meant a lot to me :)

I'll keep you updated to my progress and what all is going on at home.

- Nickel