❁ train of feels ; soonhoon

[ 02 ]

{ pov soonyoung }

It was 07:23pm as we arrived at the station. Mingyu fell asleep after he told me everything about his new shoes.
I don't really care about shoes, the only thing I was thinking about was this little boy. I looked at him the whole time until he had to change trains.
But why am I thinking about him? It's just a random stranger I'll never see again. Sadly.

While I was deep in thought, I stared at sleeping Mingyu.

He looks so cute when he sleeps.. WHAT THE HELL KWON SOONYOUNG EWWWW THESE THOUGHTS HAVE TO GO OUT OF YOUR HEAD

"Why are you staring at me?", he asked sleepily and blinked at me.

My cheeks turned pink and I turned around quickly.

"I didn't stare at you.."

"You did"

"You wish"

He just laughed and grabbed his bag. I did the same and went outside.

"See you, Soonyoungie" Mingyu cheered, smiled at me and ran towards the bus station.

"Bye Gyuu" I replied and smiled.

I hope he doesn't think I have feelings for him or some shit.. ok why should he even think that wtf

Situations like that wasn't unusual. Once I even put my head on his lap and fell asleep. Sometimes it feels like he is my boyfriend but he isn't and I actually don't want it to happen.
Maybe it's just because he's gay and acts so gentleman towards other boys. But I'm NOT gay and I don't even know why I have thoughts like this running through my head.

—

11:46pm

My mind is a mess and I don't know what to think about.
Mingyu was actually the one who distracted me from things like that but I just didn't want to see him or anyone else right now.
But I wanted to see the small boy. With blonde hair. And cute chubby cheeks.

Stop Soonyoung. Stop.

I wish I knew more about him but instead of having a normal conversation I had to ask him if he knew where the toilets are. Thanks Mingyu. But I guess I wouldn't have talked to him if Mingyu didn't want to play this silly game.

I sighed. That's what I always do when I don't know how to deal with problems. I mean, I don't even believe in love at first sight, but it's strange that I think so much about him. It's so unrealistic and feels like I'm in one of those cliché love movies or books.

I lay down on my bed and stared at the ceiling.

What was his destination? Where is he from? Does he live nearby?

Questions. Questions that won't be answered.

I have to give up. Why does he have to be this important to me? I don't know anything about him and I'll never see him again anyways so what's the point?

The annoying ringtone of my phone interrupted my train of thought.

—

Memegyu 👏

wHat's up SoonYouNgie

don't call me this  
stupid name again

or I'll kick your ass

Why not, it's cute ;)

shut up

You're so mean to me!!

so what

hmmm I guess I'll talk
to you tomorrow

ok but why did u
even text me?     

I wanted to know
if you're ok

yes I am, why do
u worry?               

because you seemed
so different today..

I'm fine Mingyu, I need
to sleep now:) c ya        

lots of love, sleep well!!

—

I closed my eyes and tried to sleep but it wasn't that easy because I kept thinking about the train ride.

Go out of my head, I just want to sleep??

There was no other way. I had to see the little boy again.