❁ train of feels ; soonhoon

[ 06 ]

{ pov soonyoung }

I woke up in the middle of the night because of someone who kissed my neck repeatedly.

"M-mingyu?", I whispered intimidated and tried to look around me, even though everything was dark.

WHAT IS HE DOING ???????

Instead of answering, he somehow found a way to my lips and kissed me softly. He was probably half asleep and didn't know what he was doing so I didn't dare to push him away.. well, did I even want to?

I hesitated a little bit but kissed him back.
After that he slowly lifted up my shirt but I quickly grabbed his hand, almost panicking because I knew what he wanted to do, and intertwined my fingers with his instead.

WHAT IS HAPPENING I DON'T UNDERSTAND

I wrapped my arms around Mingyu's neck as he deepened the kiss and made it into a heated one. At this point I was sure that he was fully awake but I didn't really care about it anyways.

We had barely come up for air this whole time. Neither of us could pull away. His lips were unbelievable soft and they tasted so good, so I didn't want this kiss to end.

All of a sudden Jihoon came into my mind.

What the fuc k, no???? this is Mingyu, I don't need to imagine Jihoon right now. PLEASE.

I finally pulled away from the sweet kiss and looked at him, we were both out of breath. The way Mingyu kissed me with such a force simply left me speechless.

"M-mingyu I.. I- ", I stuttered.

"Did you enjoy it?"

My cheeks turned tomato-red and I quickly looked away.

At least he can't see my red face because it's still dark outside....

"You're blushing, does this mean Yes?", he said as he put one hand on my left cheek.

............... how did he-

I just nodded slowly because I didn't know what to say. He confused me, he confused my feelings.
He smiled but he looked like he regretted kissing me at the same time. It was pretty obvious: he didn't love me because he's just my best friend, what a shame.

"I.. I don't understand", I said as I unconsciously stared into his eyes. "Best friends shouldn't do things like that.. should they?"

Mingyu suddenly looked like he seemed sad and I felt kinda sorry for him.
He just nodded and looked at his hands. "You're right. I.. I just miss Wonwoo I guess.. and-"

"I know.. It's okay because I know how you feel.. I'm sorry that this happened"

So it meant nothing to him. Am I sad about it? I don't know. But did it mean anything to me? Maybe a little bit.. but I thought of Jihoon, so do I have feelings for Jihoon, even if I don't know anything about him except that he likes strawberry milk? That's silly. I can't be in love with him. But I feel really jealous when someone sits beside him. On the other hand I liked the kisses I just had with Mingyu, what am I supposed to do?

"But I like you more than just a friend", he added while I was deep in thought and I looked at him surprised.

This was honestly the last thing I needed to know. Why couldn't he just say that he regretted everything and we're just going to forget what happened?

"But.. you love Wonwoo"

"I do. But I have to forget him, I even just cheated on him", he said, covering his face with his hands.

"But..if he broke up..you didn't cheat on him", I answered carefully while I stroke his back. "You need a little bit of distraction..don't you?"

"Maybe I do.. Can you help me?"

"Yes of course. I'll do anything, just tell me", I replied and smiled a bit.

He scratched the back of his head and looked out of the window before looking back at me.

"anything?", he asked quietly.

I nodded. "I'll do my best"

"I.. don't know if we-"

"Tell me"

He sighed and I could see how nervous he was.

Shit. I think I know what is going to happen.. oh no this is so unrealistic oh my god please in the mighty name of Jesus.. what am I supposed to do

After a few seconds he grabbed my hand and confirmed what I was thinking:

"Be with me", he whispered softly.

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YES THIS IS STILL A SOONHOON FANFIC, IT'S JUST FOR THE DRAMA YALLL