Our Last Song (Unedited)

Chapter 3

"We think it's best you do the competition."Nat said nodding his head.

"Wha- No!" I pouted stubbornly.

"Destiny, just consider it."Jordan said flipping her long, silky black hair.

I wish I looked like Jordan. I have dirty blond hair thats about the same length as Jordan's but I have dark blue eyes and she has pretty green ones. Me, I just have plain dirty blond hair, a few freckles here and there but I'm anti- physical. I can barely run the  block without running out of breath. Unlike Jordan who runs in the morning every day and happens to be the captain of the cheer squad. I'm not fat but I sure do feel like it, plus who hates getting sweaty and sticky anyways?

I get my height apparently from my father, whom I despise with all my living soul. I'd rate Jordan a perfect ten while I'm like a three. I get really jealous of her at times so bad, I can't even talk to her. I know, I know its really selfish but jealousy takes over at times. I mean at school, Nathan, Jo, and I are considered second tier popular groups.

Nat is definitley  one of the hottest guys in school though there is the jock Ethan Payne who is I say second hottest after Nathan.Then you have Jordan and I are the second two most hottest girls in school. Well, according to Janine, we are. Janine of course is the "hottest" girl in school but I honestly think it's Jordan. Jordan is beautiul with a natural tan and pretty eyelashes with her silky hair. Janine just tries to hard to look nice. Plus, ever since we were little, Janine has always tried to outwin me in everything. Nathan snapped me back to reality saying-

"You know, If you do this, Jo and I will go on a date."Nathan shivered.

I gasped. My wavy hair fell over my face. If you dont know, I've been begging Nathan and Jordan to go on a date. I have a feeling they'll click. They deny it all the time. But whenever Jordan sits next to me and Nathan thinks we don't see him he stares at her all the time. Every time I'm talking to Jordan, she always mentions Nathan. Honestly, I think they secretly love each other but they deny it.

The typical love story.They deny and deny but one day BAM!

Now they're bribing me.

Two can play it this game- well three.

"How many dates?"I whisper.

I saw Nathan smile while Jordan rolled her eyes and was portraying herself vomiting.

"How ever many you want."Jordan muttered.

I  smiled while evily rubbing my hands together as if I had an evil plan.

Which I do.

"Only if you do the competion."Nathan pointed out.

My stomach churned making me feel sick.

I haven't performed in years. Back then I thought I was good, but that was before him. I really have a bad feeling about this. What if they laugh? What if they'll hate me? I mean, I know they will but it will be even more embarassing.

"Look, this is our deal either you take it or you dont."Jordan tapped her foot impatiently.

"If I say no?"I asked.

"You will never hear the end of it."Nathan said secretly pointing to Jordan.

"Ca- can I think about it?"

"No."

"Bu-"

"Nope"

"Come on, just one-"

"Nope."

I sighed, there's no way youre getting out of this one

"Sadly."I said

Jordan looked at Nathan with a questioning look. He shrugged as if he was used to it. Oh god, if youre there, get me out of this! After a few seconds knowing nothing was going to happen I said-

"Say I wanted to do it, not saying I do, but hypothetically if I did, when would the auditions start?"

Nathan and Jordan grinned at each other high fiving each other.

"Hypothetically!"I screamed.

"Hypothetically,you would start next Friday."Nat said crossing his arms, waiting.

"You know what? I really have to pee so I should go....do....that."I ran into my room and closed my door. I strided to my drawer and opened the yellowing letter that was still unopened from him. I haven't dared even looking at the only connection I have to him.

I ran to my candle and held the envelope over the flickering flame as the corner of the paper turned into curling, black, charred nothing. I quickly blew out the flame to preserve of what was left. I dropped the envelope on the floor as so did I as I broke down crying.

I can't do it. I'll let him down for sure. He'll only see me as a disappointment.

I lightly sobbed into the carpet. Im just not ready for him again.

Not yet.