We made it guys. Part 20.... *sigh*
Grab your popcorn
Grab your tissues
And grab your phone in case of emergencies.
Here we go:
(Reader's p.o.v.)
You sat on the floor beneath your closed window, not wanting to look at them as they left. You couldnt bare to look at them...you wouldnt even adress them by their names.
They hadnt earned that kindness.
You hug your pillow closer, fighting back the flood of tears you thought were coming, but to your surprise, you didnt cry as hard as you thought you would. But part of you wanted to cry harder.
'Cry harder damn it'. You thought to yourself.
"I wont cry for him..." you say out loud, over and over. "I wont i wont i wont."
But it didmt help. You let out one loud sob, and then just let it all oud. You cried, harder then you ever had before. You cried out like everythig you ever worked for, knew, or loved was swept from under your feet, out of your reach.
Thats right...
You were crying because the one person you loved was just whisked away from you.
And it hurt like a bitch.
(Eridans p.o.v.)
Not yours.
Not yours....
Her words bounced around in your head as you glanced at fef. She turned to look at you and stopped.
"What is it, Eridan?" She asked, tilting her head to the side a bit.
"I...i wwas just thinkin...." you said, looking away. You felt her hand on your arm and you turned back to her. She looked worried.
"I know thats not true. Whats on your mind? You look a bit blue..."
"Wwell..." you trailed off. "I...wwanted to ask you something. You havve to answwer honestly, though."
"Alright, shore! Whats up?"
You hesitate. "Is....is the baby....reely mine?"
Her face droops a bit, and she looks uneasy. "I....i...." she starts, getting cut off by her own sobs. "Oh Eridan im sorry!" She wails.
"Wwhat is it?" You ask, knealing down beside her on the sand.
"I-i just didnt know what to do! I-i cant r-raise this baby alone! I needed help a-and...Im so sorry!!!"
"Easy, fef, easy. Its okay...i forgivve you. Just breath and tell me wwhats wwrong."
"O-okay...promise not to be mad at me?" She asked, turning to look at me with bloodshot teary eyes. I nodded.
"Alright..." she said. "Well....when...the group sorta kicked you out...i tried to talk to you. I hated seeing all of you fighting. But then we just ended up fighting, and i was upset. So i went to sollux's hive....he comforted me, we had a few drinks...a-and i confessed to him. He kissed me and we...well, we slept together. I was reely happy. But the next morning..."
(Fef's p.o.v)
(Flashback)
"Sollux? Bay-bee?" I said, looking around. Sollux was slouched over sitting on the edge of the bed, his head in his hands.
"Sollux?" I called, reaching my hand out to him, but he moved away. He turned to me and i smiled, but soon that faded away. He looked so....so angry and upset. Like he had been crying or hadnt slept good.
"FF, gog ii'm 2o 2orry...ii 2houldnt have...we 2houldnt have...ugh...ii dont thiink you 2hould 2tay here. Well, ii mean, you can, iim not gonna ju2t kiick you out but..."
"Are you...mad at me?" I asked, sounding more hurt than i wanted to.
"Ii...iim 2orry...ii ju2t cant...." he said, before walking out the room and then leaving his hive. I felt guilty. So i put my clothes back on and went home and cried myself to sleep... after a few days of that i felt sick and threw up a few times, but it drifted away a bit and Eridan came over to talk and apologize, in a similar way to what Sollux and i had done a few nights prior.
(Eridans p.o.v.)
"So...so thats what happened. Sollux...Sollux doesnt love me like i thought he did. And if he found out, he would be so distraught amd disappointed...plus hes with Aradia now s-so we cant...shes my friend, and i-"
You cut her off with a hug. "Fef....its okay...i honestly nevver in a million swweeps saww myself sayin this, but... Sol does lovve you. Im pretty sure. Maybe he felt guilty about tryin to movve on from Aradia and he wwas just sorta torn..but you cant just hide this from him, or Aradia. Youvve gotta tell them both, and i assure you theyll understand and help you."
"But im scared, Eridan..." she cried, sobbing into my shoulder.
"Shhh, shhh...." i cooed, patting her head. "Its okay. I knoww you. Youre gonna be fine..."
She gave a small laugh. "You havent shoosh-papped me in so long...i missed you, my moirail..." she said, placing out two fingers. I matched my own with hers to form a diamond shape with hers, the sign of moirailegence. I couldnt help but smile.
Why was i smiling? I just lost my chances with both of the girls i ever loved...
Loved....
Loved....
Sweet gog i loved her.
I bloody love (y/n).
"Shit, fef, ivve gotta go. But i wwill come see you. Trust me youll be fine. Ivve gotta go!" I cried, running back to (y/n)'s house as fast as my legs would carry me.
