You wanna know what happens once you kill yourself ?
Your mother comes home from work and finds her baby dead and she screams and runs over to you and tries to get you to wake up but you won't and she keeps screaming and shaking you and her tears are dripping onto your face.
Your dad hears all the screaming and runs into the room and he can't even speak because the child that he loved and the child that he watched grow up is gone forever.
Your little sister runs into the room to see what all the fuss is about and she sees you dead. The person she looked up to and loved. The person she bragged about to her friends, the person she wanted to be just like when she grew up, the person that made her feel safe. But she's never really going to get to grow up and smile and laugh and love because she'll always be consumed with this feeling of missing you.
And now there's something missing from your family and they can barely look at each other anymore because everything reminds them of you but you're gone and hurts more than anything, and you think that your mom never cared because she was always busy and yelling at you to finish your homework and clean your room and forgot to I love you sometimes, but really she loved you more than anything and she doesn't leave the house anymore, she can't even get out of bed and she's getting thinner and thinner because its too hard to eat. Your father had to quit his job and he doesn't sleep anymore, every time he closes his eyes he see his baby dead, and the image never goes away no matter how much alcohol he drinks.
And at school your best friend sees that your seat is empty and she gets this sick feeling in her stomach and that's when she hears the announcement. You killed yourself. And suddenly she's screaming and crying in the middle of class and no one even bothers comforting because they're all busy sitting there staring at your empty seat with tears dripping down their cheeks and all she wants is for you to hug her and tell her it's gonna be okay like you always did, but this time, you're not there to do it, everything is dark now that you're gone, her grades are slipping.
You killed yourself.
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