Cover My Eyes (A Jaspar Fanfic)

Part 8

Caspar's POV

"At least tell me you'll consider it."

Zoe and Joe's conversation could be heard outside the door. My pulse quickened as I waited for Joe's answer. I didn't even have time to be mad at Zoe for spilling my secret, this was happening now. Would Joe give me a chance to be the happiest guy on Earth?

"No."

My heart stopped. It only took one syllable to kill me. My hand grasped at my chest to hold together the remains of my shattered heart. I had waited too long to confess to Joe and he's moved on. I'm such an idiot.

My pity party only lasted for a moment before my sadness was replaced with anger. If I couldn't have Joe, I sure as hell didn't want to watch him fall in love with another man. I threw the door open, startling Zoe who was still seated on the couch.

"Caspar, oh god Caspar, I'm so sorry! I was only trying to help." Zoe looked at me, her eyes full of tears but I just blew past her and straight to my room.

Clothes were flying everywhere, some even made it into the bags I was packing. Doors opened and closed as I looked for boxes and bags.

"What on Earth are you doing?"

Joe's voice floated to me from the door.

"Go away Joe."

Footsteps sounded from the doorway to just behind my back. My packing process slowed to a stop, is he going to stop me? My heart fluttered at the idea, a romantic scene playing out in my head.

"Oi, answer my fucking question. Zoe is upstairs sobbing, what's going on with you? You have been so weird lately."

Okay, so no fairytale romance for me.

"Listen Joe, nothing personal but I can't stay here anymore. I'm moving."

Joe stopped. His brows furrowed together in that cute way of his. But his look of confusion was quickly replaced with a big grin.

"You're joking. That doesn't make any sense. You don't have anywhere to go and what am I supposed to do? I can't afford this place on my own."

I shrugged. "That's not my problem and I'll stay with Josh until I find a place. You can't change my mind, I can't stay here."

The smile faded off of his face. My heart broke a little more. It wasn't my intention to make him hurt too. I just wanted to save myself.

"Cas, if this is about what Zoe told me, I'm sorry. It's not you, I'll always care for you, it's just that Marcus makes me happy. I'm not going to pass up this chance. We can still be friends though, we can make this work."

Joe offered me his hand, an offering of friendship. I didn't take it. Instead I turned my back on him. It was a small gesture but it was all it took to break the little bit of my heart that was left.

"No we can't."

Silence filled the room for a minute. Two minutes. Three minutes. Finally Joe's retreating footsteps broke the tense atmosphere. Good, now I could cry in peace.

A/N 

Hi guys! It's been awhile but because I finally got a laptop. Now you can expect a lot more regular updates. Also watch out for my other stories! I'm still experimenting with my writing style and ideas so bear with me. I'd love to get feedback as well. Thanks so much

-Jess xx